Note:
This continues scenes of both physical and psychological torture. If this
offends you, please don't read further.
The Terrorist
by MJ Mink
That
he, with his great strength, had to lock his grip around a rail as a brace
against the howling gusts swirling through the shaft, foretold the depths of
his son's will, of the undisciplined Force ability that gave the mind dominance
over the turbulence buffeting around the body and allowed Luke to cling to his
precarious perch above the abyss.
This
was no time for admiration, for though his son's spirit was strong, his
physical form would soon give into shock from the amputation and might yet
surrender to the eventual inevitable and fall. Vader had withheld his most
important card until now -- until the
moment that the truth might be played and the hand won.
"Obi-Wan
never told you what happened to your father," he growled, his voice
resonating through the hollow core of Cloud City.
"He
told me enough! He told me you killed him!" Fury and grief rang through
the youth's tone, and the emotions gave Vader pause.
So.
This was why the youngster had determinedly faced him and not fled when
confronted with the superior skills of the Dark Lord. Ah, Obi-Wan, my
old Master,
he thought with a twinge of remembered pain, you should have told him the truth
-- or barring that, you should not have
told him such a wicked lie. This changed the dynamic of his intended revelation.
Learning his true parentage might well overwhelm Luke's sensibilities and cause
him to react irrationally. Lord Vader had no desire to see his son die in such
a useless fashion.
"No,"
he replied finally, "I did not kill him. Indeed, Anakin Skywalker lives
this day."
Perhaps
it was only the hair whipping across his face that brought tears to his son's
eyes. Perhaps not. Either way, Vader felt a shudder of shock vibrate through
the Force, followed by the boy's intense interest. "That's not true!"
Luke screamed. "That's impossible!"
"Search
your feelings," he said calmly, trying to wake Luke's latent abilities.
"You know it to be true."
The
youth's gaze drifted as he looked inward. Faster than Vader could have
predicted, Luke accepted the truth and glared at him. "Where is he? What
have you done with him?"
Though
he knew the boy could not see his smile of welcome, the Dark Lord held out his
hand. "Come with me."
Instantly
he saw his error, for the blue eyes narrowed with suspicion. "No! I'll never
join you!"
"I
am not asking you to join me," he replied softly, so Skywalker had to lean
closer to hear him. The boy was almost within reach. "But I will tell you
about your father...and I will tell you how to track him. Perhaps you will find
him before I do."
Horror
filled the agonized gaze as the implied threat struck the youth.
"Or,
son of Anakin, would you prefer to fall to a painful death, and leave me to
deal with your father?"
Luke
glanced down the shaft, his face momentarily concealed by clumps of
sweat-matted hair. He looked up again, hesitating, considering. Still Vader
held out his hand, waiting as he would wait for the trust of a wounded animal.
Luke's eyes closed and, for a heart-stopping moment, Vader thought the boy was
going to let go and plummet to his death. But when the eyes opened, in their
depths he saw combined hope, resignation, and desperation, all emotions that he
had felt himself at his most crucial moment. Pushed to the edge, losing all
hope, only to have it returned from an unexpected and very dangerous source.
Young Skywalker reached toward him, and Vader
locked his fingers around the small wrist, pulling his son to safety. All too
quickly, the boy lapsed into unconsciousness, and the Dark Lord caught his
breath at the narrow escape they had both had -- the boy, from death; Vader, from a bleak future of subservience.
Despite
Luke's apparent slightness, his muscles were honed to a fine hardness, a mark
of discipline, Vader noted approvingly. He hefted the youth over his shoulder
and, locking his arm around his son's knees, marched off the gantry and through
the long corridors to where his shuttle awaited their arrival.
*
* *
His
mouth was sticky and his tongue felt like it was covered with fur. Luke rubbed
his tongue against his teeth and smacked his lips. Something touched his
forehead, then pressed on it. A hand. He stiffened, relaxing as a straw pushed
into his mouth and moisture trickled down his parched throat. His eyelids were
apparently glued shut, and he struggled to open them, wanting to see who was
helping him. Trying to raise his arms, he discovered they were bound, and he
began to tug against the restraints.
"Settle
down," a male voice said firmly. "No one is hurting you. You're quite
a fighter, aren't you?"
"Who..."
He coughed, cleared his throat, and attempted to speak again. "Who...where
am I?" he asked hoarsely.
"I
am Dr. Quester, and you are in my sickbay." A cool, damp cloth was laid
across his eyes. "Relax. You had a reaction to the sedation and have been
unconscious for a full cycle. That's why you're feeling the way you do."
Luke
concentrated, grappling with what had been said. "Sedation?" he
finally managed to croak. "S-sickbay?"
"I
had to sedate you while I tended your wounds."
"W-wounds?"
His arms were released from the bindings, and he felt the doctor raise and
manipulate them, gently massaging his hands. "Don't remember. Where...'s
sickbay?"
The
cloth was removed. "I've dimmed the lights so your eyes can adjust
gradually." There was a moment's silence, then: "You don't remember
anything? You're aboard the Imperial Destroyer Executor."
Imperial?
A
prisoner? But how--
In
an instant, the vivid memories flashed across his mind like a violent holo
show. "Vader!" he exclaimed, bolting upright, trying to ignore a wave
of nausea that made him groan. He couldn't fight Vader in this condition. And
Vader... Vader had his father! No...Vader knew where his father was -- no, Vader didn't know! Luke had to find
him first. "My father," he whispered to himself.
"Vader
is your father?" the doctor asked in an astonished tone.
"Stars,
no!" Luke exclaimed, horrified. "My father was-- is a Jedi! I thought Vader killed him, but--"
He snapped his mouth closed. "You're an Imperial," he accused.
Rubbing his eyes to remove the last of the blurriness, he studied the man
standing at his bedside.
He
was tall, gray-haired and old, at least fifty, with warm brown eyes that were
filled with perplexed amusement. He was wearing a white coat, but the gray
collar of an Imperial officer's uniform peeked from above it. "Yes, I am.
Rayl Quester, at your service, Commander Skywalker."
Imperials
were supposed to be tougher and meaner, or at least coldly officious. Maybe
medical personnel were different, since this man appeared to be none of those
things. Luke nodded stiffly. "What wounds do I ha -- Oh." His hand. He raised his right arm
and saw his hand. Or rather, saw a hand. This one looked smoother. His former hand
had a small scar on its thumb where Binte had nipped him years ago after he'd
petted her a little too hard. "Is it a clone?" he asked, shuddering.
"No,
it's the latest Imperial technology and, as the bureaucrats feel compelled to
say, it's 'better than the original'." The doctor snorted, but refrained
from further commentary. "There's a panel here. When I push on it,
thus...you see? This compartment holds the controls and provides accessibility
for repairs."
"Repairs," he echoed.
"Yes,
should it be damaged. If you maintain it properly, following the instructions
I'll give you, there's no reason why it shouldn't last for several years before
parts need to be replaced," Quester added in the same matter-of-fact tone
Uncle Owen used when explaining why he wouldn't replace crumbling evaporators
with new technology.
"Great,"
Luke snapped before remembering his manners and adding, "Thank you."
"Don't
thank me, I'm only the grunt. It was Lord Vader's instruction that you be given
the best replacement available."
"Oh."
He couldn't consider Vader right now. "Do you have my old hand? The real
one?"
The
doctor turned away and searched through silver instruments on a tray. "I
believe you lost it in Cloud City. Perhaps it went out the disposal vent."
With
his father's lightsaber. He wondered if the hand was still wrapped around the
hilt. "I hope it was destroyed. I wouldn't like it to be used for cloning
an army of Luke Skywalkers."
"Gods
forbid," Quester muttered fervently, returning to his bedside. "Now,
pay attention while I demonstrate how to service the components."
Forcing
himself to focus on this new and potentially interesting task, Luke resolutely
pushed aside the other thing he really needed to know: why wasn't he in the
brig? He was Vader's prisoner, wasn't he?
He
yelped as a mini hydrospanner smacked on the back of his hand.
"I
said, pay attention, Commander."
"Yessir!"
he snapped involuntarily, nearly grinning despite the gravity of his
predicament.
As
he had suspected, the intricacies of the tiny parts were fascinating, and after
a lengthy string of repeated requests, Dr. Quester finally allowed him to take
the tools himself and experiment with adjusting the controls. At first, the
constant entrances and exits by medical personnel were distracting, but he soon
grew used to them, and when Quester left to tend another patient, Luke remained
engrossed in his experimentation. With minute adjustments, he was able to make each
finger bounce in endless repetitions, first one at a time, then eventually he
had them all going in slightly different rhythms. Possibly this could be useful
for playing a musical instrument or for.... He blushed at the involuntary
vision that came to his mind of him and the Princess and--
"While
I am pleased that you are able to amuse yourself, I would prefer that you did
so in a more constructive manner," a deep, measured voice said.
Luke
froze, except for his fingers.
Vader! Damnit to Sith-hell! Without looking up, he frantically readjusted
the small screws, and the fingers stilled one by one, except for his thumb,
which retained a persistent twitch. He curled his fingers around it before
raising his eyes to the Dark Lord. "You're a fine one to talk about being
constructive," he said bitterly. "Slicing off my hand wasn't
constructive!"
"On
the contrary, it ended your futile battle and prevented a fall to your
death," Vader replied coolly. "Additionally, a hand is more easily
replaced than a head."
His
eyes widened for a split second before he realized that no technology existed
to replace a brain. "Are you trying to be funny?"
Ignoring
his question, Vader took the hydrospanner from him and grabbed his wrist.
"Let
go of me!" He struggled, but succeeded only in making Vader tighten his
grip. "Hey!"
"What's
going-- Oh." Dr. Quester strode into the room and came to a fast halt.
"My Lord. May I be of assistance?"
"For
your future reference, Doctor," the Dark Lord said as he made an
adjustment that stopped Luke's twitching thumb, "it is unwise to leave
young Skywalker alone with tools that he might turn into weapons or instruments
of escape. Count your equipment to be sure he will not abscond with
anything."
"I
don't abscond!" Luke protested, pulling his hand free. Suspiciously, he
tested it and found all five digits to be functioning properly.
"What
became of the stormtrooper armor you stole from the Death Star? The weapons?
And there's the matter of a satchel full of credits stolen en route to the
quartermaster's office on Ord Mantell."
"It's
not stealing when it's war," he defended weakly.
"As
I said, Doctor," Vader turned to address Quester, "check your
instruments. When you have completed his treatments, transfer him to
Detention."
Great.
If it was anything like Leia's detention cell, there would be no hope that he
could escape. He glared at Vader, but remained silent. They both knew that he
wanted to ask more about his father, but he refused to be the first to
surrender and speak.
"You
are dismissed, Doctor," the Sith said sharply, waiting until Quester bowed
and departed before adding, "Ask what you wish, Son of Skywalker, but I
will answer only one question so choose it wisely."
He
framed several questions in his mind, accepting that Vader meant what he said
and would only reply to one. But there was really only one question he wanted
answered. "How can I find my father?"
The
short pause was punctuated by Vader's unnerving, uniform breaths. "Research,"
he said eventually. "I will allow you access to all known databanks.
But," one finger was raised in a warning, "I will have your word of
honor that you will use nothing you find to attack or harm the Empire or any of
its citizens or interests."
"All
right," Luke replied slowly. "You have my word." He hoped he
wouldn't stumble across any information that would be vital to the Rebellion,
for it would put him in a very awkward position. But if he focused on Anakin
Skywalker, he would be focusing on the past, following a trail of clues.
"I want a promise from you, too. That when I find my father, you won't
steal the information and use it to hurt him."
He
sensed that behind the ebon mask, Vader was studying him as he considered his
words. "Very well, young one. I promise I will not harm your father."
Luke
nodded, looking down at his hand. He closed the open compartment door, pushing
it until it latched with a click, knowing the very second when Vader's
attention was diverted from him to other business. Then he watched through
half-lowered lashes as the Dark Lord swept from sickbay.
"No,
no," Quester scolded the troopers, "not so tight. If you must use binders, clasp them loosely.
I don't want my work damaged."
Luke
drew down the corners of his mouth, scowling at the physician. "That's my hand you're talking
about," he muttered under his breath, "not just your 'work'."
Evidently
the doctor had sharp hearing, because he sent Luke a chastising look before
addressing him. "If you have any problems with the hand-- or any problems
at all-- ask the guards to send for me. Lord Vader has given orders that I may
attend to your needs."
He
nodded absently, eyeing the two troopers, wondering if he could escape and
'abscond' with a TIE.
"Are
you listening to me?"
Facing
Quester, he looked at the taller man.
"Yes. If I'm ill, Vader will allow me to be treated. That's
generous of him."
"That's
not what I said. You must learn to listen." The brown gaze drilled into
him. "If you ask for me, I will come. Remember that."
His eyes narrowed, and he inclined his head.
Quester smiled slightly and gestured to the guards to take him. They were
relatively gentle with him, not even touching him as they traveled to the
Detention area. Nothing was as Luke expected. These Imperials, who fought so
fiercely, appeared reasonable and so normal in person. He supposed it was his
youthful naivete that had formed the idea that Imperials had no consciences and
were somehow inferior to the Rebels. But, he reluctantly admitted to himself,
the Alliance had propagated that illusion. Even Leia. The realization troubled
him, but he had no time to ponder it longer as they arrived at his assigned
cell.
"Watch
your head. There are steps down."
"Down?"
he asked curiously, glancing at the trooper who had spoken.
"You're
in one of our executive cells," the second guard said lightly. "In
fact, it's bigger than my quarters."
"Lord
Vader said you're to have computer access, so there's a space for that, plus
separate living and sleeping areas," the first trooper added. "And a
private 'fresher, of course."
"No
window, though," the second added, chuckling.
Luke
was uncertain how to respond to this bantering. "I saw a detention cell in
the Death Star and it was tiny." Carefully, he maneuvered the few steep
stairs.
"The
Executor is the queen of the
fleet. Everything is bigger and better here."
"Oh."
The stairs opened into a decent-sized room complete with comfortable-appearing
furniture and a vid-set. He was anxious to see the computer area, but wanted
the guards to leave. However, they were in no hurry. One stood by the stairs,
and the other continued speaking as he unfastened the binders from Luke's
wrists.
"There's
a pantry here, stocked lightly, as you can see, and a refrigeration unit. They
will be restocked on a weekly basis, and your daily meals will be delivered. If
you need anything sooner, just use the com to request service. Same with towels
and sheets. If you find anything to be uncomfortable or if you have any other
needs, again just use the com. Pressing any button will connect you with
someone who will assist you. I'll check in from time to time, in case you need
anything...or just want some company."
Luke
nodded, too confused to reply. If this was the way Imperial prisoners were
treated, he wondered how well the stormtroopers lived.
"Unless
you need something else right now, we'll leave and give you privacy."
He
nodded again and managed to stammer, "No, th-thank you, I'm fine. Thank
you."
The
guards gave him friendly waves, and he listened until their footsteps reached the
door and it closed behind them. Then he
set about exploring his new quarters.
*
* *
"I
trust the transfer went smoothly?" The Dark Lord focused on his
Intelligence aide.
"Yes,
My Lord. My men gave him the 'kid glove' treatment. He appeared quite pleased
with his accommodations."
"As
he should be." He paused. "And the tests?"
The
officer handed him a small tablet. "As you can see, the blood tests
confirmed your paternity, and his midichlorian count is close to two-thirds of
yours, sir."
"Still
exceptionally high." Indeed, the boy's count was higher than Yoda's. Vader
gave a pleased sigh as he studied the data. "Continue to cultivate a
friendship with him, but not too quickly or easily. Do not arouse his
suspicions. You are dismissed."
"My
Lord." Rayl Quester bowed and exited the Sith Lord's quarters.
Briefly,
Vader considered Quester. The man had worked with him for nearly a decade, and
Vader was confident of his loyalty. However, no one could be trusted totally;
every man had his price, be it material or emotional. Quester's son had been
killed in the Rebellion several years earlier, and he had never, to Vader's
knowledge, been able to grieve. He
would need to be watched closely to be sure that he did not develop any true
attachment to Skywalker. It was a fine, yet dangerous, blend: the orphan and
the bereaved father. If it worked well, Luke would long for a relationship with
his true father and would willingly join him once the truth was revealed.
Together, they would overthrow Palpatine and rule the Empire as father and son.
A
chime sounded on his monitoring console, signaling a communication originating
from Skywalker's quarters. Vader rose and crossed to the room, punching the
control that allowed him to listen.
"I
hardly expected to hear from you so soon, Commander," Quester's smooth
voice said. "Is your hand troubling you?"
"No,
but you said I could call if -- Well,
my computer doesn't work, I can't access any of the databases Vader promised --
"
"Nor
will you be able to do so for another day. You are to rest and not strain the
hand...which you would do if I were to allow you computer access."
"You aren't allowing me
access?" Luke's voice held a familiar tone of arrogance that caused a
smile to crease his father's face. "Does Vader know? He said I'd have all
the access I wanted."
"And
so you shall, in another day." In contrast, Quester's voice was full of
amused patience. "Have a good evening, Skywalker," he added before
severing the connection.
Vader
folded his arms, pleased with the additional information the short
communication had revealed to him. Luke was stubborn, determined to act even
though the result might be to his detriment. Even now, Vader would wager that
his child was investigating ways to dismantle the block on the computer. Luke
also had an arrogant streak, and his ire was quickly roused. These traits would
make his Turning easier. The Dark Lord allowed himself a moment of pleasurable
imaging...he, no longer Palpatine's thrall...ruling the known galaxy with his
son and heir at his side. It was a new dream, one he had not known was possible
until he learned of his son's existence. The knowledge had opened a deep well
of hope inside him, and hope was a feeling that he had rarely had in his life. It
was still a joy that he hardly dared acknowledge, yet now it was so gloriously
overwhelming that he closed his eyes and reveled in it.
But
he could not indulge for more than a moment. It was necessary that he continue
to guard his true feelings, as he had learned to do over the passage of years.
And he had his duties to perform. It was Duty that had gotten him through the
last two decades, and he could not ignore it, no matter that freedom was
finally within his grasp.
*
* *
Cursing
under his breath didn't help. Logically, he knew that; nevertheless the
muttering brought Luke some comfort. It had taken forever, or so it seemed, to
navigate around the deeply-buried barriers someone had entered in the computer,
and now that he had, what did he find? The same old generic "Galactic
Classic" database that he could have accessed anywhere. He'd searched here
for his father many times and had found barely more than a passing reference.
Vader had tricked him!
Fuming,
he shut down the equipment, ready for a fight. A yawn took him by surprise, and
he decided that the sensible thing would be to sleep now and confront Vader in
the morning. Stripping, he hung the sickbay scrubs in the closet, noting with
some surprise that his torn and ruined fatigues were draped over hangers, along
with gray jumpsuits, trousers, and jackets. Prepared to be angry, he checked
them for Imperial insignias, deflated when he found none. On the floor of the
closet were black boots, leather shoes, even a pair of soft slippers that he
slid his feet into. A thick robe was on a hook on the back of the door.
"This is like a Hotel," he murmured reverently. Though he had never
stayed in one, Leia had told him about Hotels that offered pampering services
and personal attention. Luke had only slept at home, in ships, and in barracks,
none of which could begin to compare with this Imperial destroyer.
Which
was probably the point. Dazzle the country boy with peeks at the prosperity of
the Empire and woo him to the Dark Side. Luke donned the robe and closed the
door, turning to the nearby bureau. It, too, was furnished with necessities
-- one entire drawer was devoted to
socks! He shook his head and peered cautiously into the 'fresher. It was no
surprise to find it stocked with all the personal comforts he could need. He
was tempted to be stubborn and use nothing in the suite, but what would be the
harm? These riches were a seduction, but since he was aware, he could use them
without being seduced. There was no harm in having a leisurely bath in real water,
then a healthy night's sleep in the huge airbed that was topped with a thick,
downy comforter.
No
harm at all, he decided later, as he luxuriated drowsily in the after-effects
of the hot bath, snuggling deeply under the fluffy coverings. No harm...he would
confront Vader later...after a good rest.
No
harm at all....
It
was a wonderful smell that woke him. A fragrance...one that made him stomach
growl. Then he heard the low murmur of voices.
Luke
rose and dressed quickly in a jumpsuit, since his uniform could not be worn
again without a great deal of repairing. After a quick stop in the 'fresher and
an equally fast assessment in the mirror to be sure he appeared neat and
professional, he entered the main room of his quarters. Dr. Quester and a
dark-haired, younger man were standing with relaxed postures, talking quietly.
Quester
turned at his arrival. "Good morning, Commander. I trust you rested
well?"
He
nodded, his eyes on the other man. "Who are you?"
"I
thought you met Captain Starflyer last night," the doctor returned.
"Commander, this is Krish Starflyer."
"Hi,"
the young officer said cheerfully, thrusting out his hand. "I know, we all
look alike in Stormtrooper armor. Don't be embarrassed that you didn't
recognize me."
"I
recognize your voice," Luke noted, reluctantly shaking the other's hand.
Starflyer was only a few years older than him and dressed in the Imperial
uniform of an officer, his sharp-brimmed cap tucked under one arm. "Starflyer...that's
a Tatooine name. Are you from Tatooine?" Alarms were ringing in his brain.
Did they really think he was so simple that he would just accept such a
'coincidence'?
"No,"
Starflyer replied surprisingly. "My grandfather was from there, but he
left shortly after my father was born. I never got off Coruscant until I joined
the Navy. I'm hoping to see Tatooine one day."
A
smile quirked the corner of Luke's mouth. "There's not much to see."
It was his automatic reply to those who asked about his homeworld, but lately
his words seemed hollow. After Hoth, he had a new appreciation for warmth, and
often he missed the clear skies and pure air of Tatooine. Except for occasional
encounters with the Raiders, he had known a peaceful life there. Now he had
learned, too late, that a life of adventure wasn't as grand as he thought it
would be.
"Are
you kidding?" Krish exclaimed. "I want to see the twin suns and the
Sarlaac. There's nothing on Coruscant but buildings. I want to see all the
empty land, the desert, the mountains-- I can hardly imagine what it must be
like. How could you leave?"
Luke
stared, his mouth hanging open, disconcerted by the other's enthusiasm. Dr.
Quester clapped Krish's shoulder. "Forgive him," he said to Luke.
"These city-bred youngsters appreciate the wilderness much more than those
of us born there. I'm from Ord Mirit," he added, naming one of the
relatively unpopulated planets at the edge of the Galactic Core. "But
enough talk, Commander, or your breakfast will get cold while we continue
visiting." He gestured to the domed platters on the dining table, the
source of the delightful smells that were wafting through his suite.
"I
have to be going anyway," Krish stated, checking his chron. "I'm on
duty at 0800. I can stop by after I get off, if that's all right with you,
Commander?"
"Give
him a chance to acclimate," Quester scolded. "And kindly remember
that the Commander is a prisoner." The physician softened the reminder
with a smile. "Go about your duties, Captain."
"Yes,
sir," Krish said with a mock salute to Quester and a grin to Luke.
"Later!"
Luke
removed the cover from one of the food platters, trying to gather his composure
and sort through the conflicting feelings that were barraging him. He stared at
the food: eggs, crisp bacon, and a triangular waffle with some sort of purple
fruits on it.
"Sit
down," Quester ordered, and acted on his own command. "Mind if I join
you?" he asked rhetorically. He removed the lid from the second platter to
reveal an identical assortment of food. "I took the liberty of selecting
for you, but you may order anything we have available on board. You'll find a
daily menu update online, just click on 'Services' on the main page--"
"Stop!"
Luke said, raising his voice. "What in hells is going on? You said it
yourself, I'm a prisoner. Don't try to tell me that all Imperial prisoners are
treated this way, because I know differently!"
"I
wouldn't tell you any such thing," Quester said calmly. "You're a
very special prisoner. You're a dangerous enemy. You destroyed the Death Star.
You're a fledgling Jedi. However, and more importantly, Lord Vader has
instructed that you be well taken care of. Now sit down and eat your
breakfast... unless your Rebel beliefs will not allow you to eat Imperial
food."
Flushing,
he yanked out a chair and sat. Truth be told, he was starving, and it was
difficult to maintain anger when his stomach was empty. He sampled the eggs, a
delicacy that was non-existent on Tatooine, and found they were delicious. He
ate them quickly, then could resist the bacon no longer. In a short period of
time, his plate was clean, and he sat back and watched as Quester poured two
mugs of kafin from a silver pot.
"Thank
you," he said, accepting a mug. He studied the older man, who caught his
quizzical gaze and smiled slightly.
"What
do you want to say, Commander?"
"I'm
not sure," Luke replied honestly. "The experience of being a prisoner
is not what I expected. I don't know whether to feel glad or wary that I'm
being treated differently."
Chestnut
eyes twinkled kindly. "If I were in your place, I believe I would feel
both emotions, as well as several more. Simply the fact that Darth Vader was
taking a personal interest in me would make me very nervous indeed."
It
was meant to be amusing, but Luke could only muster a glum imitation of a
smile. "What does he want with me? Do you know?"
"Don't
you?" the physician countered. "You said something about your father.
How is he involved?"
"I
don't know," he snapped, frustration making him grip the mug tightly.
"I was raised to believe he was dead, then I learned he had been a Jedi,
and now Vader says he's still alive."
"Then
where is he?"
"That's
what I'm trying to find out." It was tempting to trust this man, but Luke
reminded himself that Quester was an Imperial officer. "Vader and I are
both looking for him. For some reason, Vader wants me to do the research and
find him, but I don't know why Vader couldn't find my father himself if he
really wanted to."
Quester
was silent for a moment. "Perhaps," he finally ventured, "Vader
believes that the journey you will take is more important than its eventual
destination."
He
stared, but the other man's gaze was fixed on his kafin. A demand trembled on
the tip of his tongue, but he held it back, realizing that he had just received
a huge amount of information from a man who might be more than he appeared.
"I don't get it," he lied nonchalantly. "There's nothing I'll
find in the databases that someone else couldn't."
The
doctor shrugged, appearing to lose interest in the conversation. "I have
to get back to sickbay soon. How's your hand been working?"
"Just
fine."
"Good."
Quester rose, giving him a professional smile. "I'll clear you for
repetitive usage, so you can expect the databases to be unlocked shortly."
"Thank
you." He followed Quester to the door, still puzzled. He considered
himself a fairly good judge of character-- perhaps it was the Force that had
always given him an advantage in that area-- but he couldn't read this man.
"And thank you for breakfast. I hope you'll stop by and visit me again
sometime."
The
door release was pressed, and a guard appeared. Quester looked back over his
shoulder at Luke, his face slightly sad. "If you like."
"I
would." He watched the man depart and stared at the closed door for
several minutes. Maybe Quester was more than a physician, but he was also an
unhappy man, and the realization that these Imperials were not the
one-dimensional villains he had assumed was troubling. War was difficult
enough, with all the suffering and deaths on his side, without
considering the implications to the beings who fought him.
Life
on the farm had definitely been easier.
With
a sigh, Luke pulled out the chair at the desk and waited, practicing patience,
for the databases to appear.
*
* *
"You
were careless," Vader stated bluntly, gratified to observe that Quester
did not flinch from the criticism.
"Yes,
My Lord."
"But
you salvaged the moment, and began to confuse him. A good beginning." He
continued to scan the starfield idly, hands clasped behind his back. A great
sense of personal satisfaction filled him, and he knew he needed to be cautious
lest his anticipation distract him from his duties to Palpatine. But the appeal
to instead consider his son and the opportunities that lay before them, was
great. The boy had promise, and once his plebeian notions were destroyed and
his powers woken and harnessed, together they would take control of the Empire
and put an end to the destructive conflict that now raged. First Luke would
have to be broken, then put back together in a different, more usable way. The
challenge interested him, and he was tempted to take over the task from
Quester.
"Are
you up to the assignment, Doctor?" Slowly he turned his head toward the
other. It was a task that would daunt many men, and this was Quester's first
assignment of the sort. A test of his worthiness to continue in his
newly-chosen field.
"Yes,
My Lord," the man repeated, his eyes unreadable.
He
continued to study Quester, mentally probing for any weaknesses or doubts.
There was none to be found, though the Intelligence officer's slight Force
Talent gave him the ability to hide his feelings from a casual probe. At the
moment, it was not worth venturing deeper, an action that was as distasteful to
Vader as it was to his subjects. The minds of common men were cluttered with
useless emotions and irrational conflicts, rendering them disturbing and barely
coherent to his superior mind. It would be a relief when Luke's mind was
stabilized, when his inconsequential emotions were neutralized, when he could
become something of a companion to his father... when this vacuum in which
Vader existed became populated by two.
"Carry
on, then," he directed quietly, returning his attention to the stars.
"And remember," he added, "failure will result in the most
unpleasant of consequences."
*
* *
At
first, the additional databases turned up the same meager information he had
found during other explorations. A listing of "Skywalker, A." on a
Jedi training schedule-- a schedule that held enough names to make Luke blink
in surprise. A few mentions of "Master Kenobi and Skywalker" on peaceable
missions that seemed frequently to end in battles. Then he discovered a new
item: a single reference to a sealed "Disciplinary Documentation".
The find left him both excited and frustrated, hoping he could track down the
contents elsewhere. Perhaps his father had been prone to getting into trouble,
a trait that would allow Luke to claim it had been inherited rather than his
own creation.
He
was engrossed in his exploration when he decided that, so far, the one drawback
of his comfortable prison, other than the fact he was a prisoner, was that
people came and went as they pleased, with no polite knocking involved. When a
bright "Hello!" sounded, Luke snapped off the monitor and swiveled in
his chair. "Hello, Captain Starflyer," he greeted stiffly. "I
thought you weren't coming back until you were off duty."
"I'm
off," the other young man said cheerfully, placing a laden tray on the
small dining table.
"Short
shift."
"Are
you kidding? I was on for nine timeparts. I see you didn't order lunch, so I
brought dinner. Hope you don't mind if I join you."
"Dinner?"
Luke echoed, confused. "But it's only...it's still morning...isn't
it?"
"Not
hardly. What were you doing all day that you lost track of time?"
He
flicked the monitor back on and pulled up the Executor's chron. It was after
1900. How could that be? It seemed like he'd only sat down a couple hours
earlier. "Uh...scanning databases,
I guess. I didn't.... What did you bring to eat, Captain?" He wasn't particularly
hungry, but there was no point in passing up a good meal. He'd had enough
Alliance dry rations to last a lifetime.
"Take
your choice." Starflyer lifted the covers from both plates, revealing main
courses of a white fish and a juicy steak. "And call me Krish. May I call
you Luke?"
"Sure,"
he said uncomfortably, reaching for the steak.
"I
figured you'd take that one," Krish said smugly. "I brought wine,
too. We're only allowed one glass apiece, but I brought really big
glasses."
Luke
nodded, uncertain how to respond. He's an Imperial soldier, he reminded himself, and I should not
trust him.
But the Coruscant native was barely older than him, and he sensed no subterfuge
beneath the blithe demeanor.
"Tell
me about Tatooine. And don't look at me so suspiciously," the Imperial
added with a grin that was reflected in his hazel eyes. "It's a neutral
subject! I'm not asking for you to reveal your precious Rebellion
secrets."
With
a slight flush of embarrassment, Luke nodded, and as he described his
homeworld, soon he was lost in memories.
After awhile, warmed by the wine and the attention, he described his
home and his guardians...and how they were lost forever.
"Now
I'm glad I've never been to Tatooine," Krish commented when Luke had
finished. "I wouldn't have wanted to be one of the troopers who killed
them."
"We
probably shouldn't compare notes," he replied heavily. "Maybe we've
been in the same battles."
"Maybe."
Starflyer stood and stretched his long arms overhead before gathering the
dinnerware. "Well, time for me to turn in. I have an early shift
tomorrow." He wrinkled his nose in good-humored distaste. "It's
lights-out at 2300 for prisoners, so try not to get too engrossed in the
computer again."
Nodding,
he resisted the urge to behave like a host and walk his 'guest' to the door.
"Thanks again for dinner."
Krish
waved, tossing a smile over his shoulder before departing, leaving Luke feeling
strangely bereft. He missed his friends more than he had realized. An Imperial
could never truly be his friend, but maybe Krish Starflyer could be a temporary
substitute.
Once
again, Luke lost himself in the daunting search for information about his
father. So far he had found no clue that hinted Anakin Skywalker might be
alive. When he reached a roadblock in the current database, he switched the
search to focus on Darth Vader. He could find many excuses to justify his
interest, but the truth was that the man both terrified and fascinated him. He
wanted to know why Vader wore a disguise, how well he had known Anakin and if
he'd really betrayed him, if he had any regrets, and if his conscience ever
bothered him. Not all of those answers would be in a computer, of course, but
the available information might give him some indications. And learning about
Anakin's friend/enemy might bring out more information about Anakin himself.
Thoughtfully,
he read the official biographic information...which, oddly enough, contained
nothing about Vader's origins, his home planet, or his family. It struck Luke
as very strange. If Vader didn't want the truth known, surely he would have
planted falsehoods in the official record. But to leave it empty was almost a
challenge, as if Vader wanted someone to investigate. Luke supposed he
shouldn't take it as a personal challenge-- after all, Vader hadn't known he
would appear and be interested-- but still....
The
entire detention cell plunged into darkness. Even his monitor screen went
black. Leaping to his feet, Luke clutched the back of the chair, wondering if
they were under attack. Maybe the Alliance was coming to rescue him!
Cautiously, hands extended like a newly-blinded man, he made his way up the
steps to the door and pounded on it.
"Hello? What's going on?" He kept banging and shouting, and it
was not long before the door slid open.
Two
stormtroopers, rifles held across their chests, barred his doorway. "Quiet
down. What's the problem?"
"Th-the
lights went out," he stammered. "Are we under attack?"
"Lights
out at 2300 for prisoners. They're back on at 0600." Without any
pleasantries or further words, the door closed so fast that he jerked back
involuntarily.
"Great.
It can't be 2300 yet," he mumbled. "And it's frickin' dark, how am I
supposed to see anything?" Continuing to grumble to himself, he moved
carefully around the rooms, stubbing his toe on something and stopping to curse
ferociously. Why hadn't Yoda taught him how to see in the dark? Taught him
something useful, instead of balancing
rocks and climbing into--
--caves.
The
image returned, as clear as the moment he'd seen it. His own face, in Vader's helmet.
Cautiously,
he fumbled until he found the bed and lowered himself onto it. What did he have
in common with Vader that he should have seen such a vision? The Force, yes,
but was there something else? Someone else? Ben had said that Vader had been
his father's friend. A good friend?
Maybe Vader was lying, and he really had killed Anakin. For the first time, Luke considered the
possibility that Vader had known about Anakin's son and had been expecting
Luke to turn up one day, eager to avenge his father's death. Is that what the
helmet meant, that if he killed Vader, he would take his place? If he killed
Vader, he would fall to the Dark Side, just as Vader had fallen when he'd
killed Anakin. It was almost too ironic, but it made sense. When he saw Vader
again, perhaps he would dare to ask.
The
ideas spun around in his head, weaving silvered webs as he attempted to follow
them to a logical source. Finally,
exhausted, he felt his eyelids grow heavy and allowed them to close, slipping
into a deep slumber.
Loud
clangs and very bright lights startled him awake, and he jerked up, heart
pounding. He stumbled from the bed and into the living area. The computer was
flickering to life, displaying the same screen he'd been reading the night
before. Shaking his head, Luke yawned and headed for the shower. It was pretty
amazing that he could sleep so soundly, considering he was a prisoner on an
Imperial warship. Tonight he would be more prepared for lights-out and get his
full allotment of sleep, no more thinking and brooding like last night.
Neither
breakfast nor visitor awaited him this morning, so he made himself kafin and
toast, stretching while he waited. Maybe the Imps would let him use the
gymnasium, assuming that the "Queen of the Fleet" had one. If Quester
refused, he'd ask Vader. Vader wanted him treated well.
He
stopped in mid-stretch, then continued to place his palms flat on the floor.
Was he being treated well because Vader felt guilty about killing Anakin?
Assuming that Anakin was dead and not alive, hiding somewhere.
Oh,
he so wanted his father to be alive, but it made no sense that Anakin would be
hiding, too afraid of Vader and the Emperor to claim his son. What kind of man
would abandon his child?
With
a perplexed sigh, Luke began another day in front of the small monitor.
He
was still there, hours later, Dr. Quester appeared with a now-familiar tray.
"Don't
tell me that's dinner?" Luke commented with a half-smile, wondering if
they were attempting to alter his sense of time for their own hidden purposes.
The
physician chuckled. "Lunch. Have you been working so hard that it seems as
though the entire day has passed?"
"No.
I just thought--" He broke off. "Nothing."
Quester arranged the dishes while Luke
watched silently. "How is your research going?"
"Slowly.
Did you know that Darth Vader has no history?"
Pouring
kafin, the older man studied him. "Aren't you supposed to be looking for
your father?"
"I
was getting bored, running into dead ends. Thank you." He accepted the
mug, sipping cautiously at the hot brew, then took a bite out of a thick
sandwich. "I found Vader's authorized biography, and it begins when he was
in his twenties. You'd think there would be something earlier, even if it was
lies, wouldn't you?"
Seemingly
ignoring him, the doctor sliced his own sandwich into neat squares and ate one
before replying. After a swallow of kafin, he said, "It is a bit of a
mystery. Are you intending to solve this mystery as well?"
"Maybe.
The bio is the only site that talks about his mid-twenties," he mumbled
around the food in his mouth. "Other sites start by describing his
official position in the Empire a few years later, when he was around
thirty."
"Horrors,"
Quester murmured. "How ancient."
"I
didn't mean it that way!" Luke grinned and added bluntly, "I'm tempted
to like you, even though you're an Imp."
"Why,
thank you, sir." The tone was mocking but gentle, then Quester sobered.
"Tell me, Luke, do you not truly understand that you and everyone else are
Imperials? The ruling government is the Empire; thus all inhabitants of ruled
planets are Imperials."
"Semantics,"
he replied dismissively, though in truth he knew that. "Rebels aren't
Imperials."
"Of
course they are, Commander. Rebellious Imperials."
He
couldn't stop himself from laughing, though the accuracy of that description
made him uncomfortable. "I'll bet you're the type of person who has an
answer for everything."
"Not
everything." A shadow fell over the returned smile, and Quester studied
the remains of his sandwich a moment before pushing it aside. "You remind
me very much of.... Ah." With a shake
of his head, he wrapped his hand around the mug.
Curious,
Luke persisted. "Who do I remind you of?"
The
smile was nearly a grimace, bittersweet and wounded. The physician scrutinized
him for several moments. "My son," he said reluctantly.
"Oh."
He felt embarrassed, yet pleased. "Do you miss him? Where is he?"
Another
cup of kafin was poured. This time sweetener was added and stirred vigorously.
Luke was beginning to regret that he'd asked when Quester replied: "He's
dead."
His
eyes widened. So this was the source of the unhappiness he'd felt. "I'm
sorry," he began, but Quester wasn't listening.
"He
was only twenty, just beginning his career. He took a post as an assistant
procurement officer at the garrison on Ord Mantell. He was at his desk when
there was an attack by...your rebellious Imperials. They shot him before he
could stand up."
Nausea
roiled through him. Surely it wasn't possible-- He hadn't killed anyone during
that raid, but maybe Han or-- ?
"When did it happen?" he asked faintly.
"It's
over five years now," the physician replied, missing Luke's sigh of
relief. "There are times when I forget, expecting to hear from him or see
him. Then I remember."
Unexpected
tears sprang to his eyes, and he blinked them back. Thank the Force he hadn't
been with the Rebellion then. But he had killed Imps, thousands on the Death
Star, and how many of them had grieving fathers?
A
hand rested on his forearm, and Luke stared at it. It was the hand of an older
man, slightly creased, pale from years spent off-planet, but the nails were
clean and cut straight across. It reminded him of Owen. "You're thinking of the men you've
killed, aren't you?" Dr. Quester asked softly.
Luke
nodded, unable to speak.
"Such
knowledge is a heavy burden for anyone, but it must be more so for you. You
carry the responsibility for over a million deaths."
The word registered, but he had difficulty
understanding the concept. "A million?" he repeated numbly.
"On
the Death Star, yes." The fingers slid down to cover the top of his own
hand. They squeezed tightly. "You know that one day you will have to
answer for that act, whether it be in this life...or the next, when a million
souls cry out to your imprisoned spirit for justice. Such is the price of
terrorism."
Shaken,
he jerked free and leaped to his feet. "I'm not a terrorist! That was war!
If I hadn't destroyed it, it would have killed all of us -- and destroyed the moon, just like it did
Alderaan! That was a terrorist act,
not what I did!"
Quester's
dark eyes watched him, a humorless smile stretching his lips. "Semantics,
if I may quote you." Then he shrugged. "Though I will not disagree
about the destruction of Alderaan. It was the act of a madman.. A pity Tarkin
did not live to pay for his crimes, for there are countless citizens who would
have their revenge on him. As they wish to do with you."
"Are
you one of them?" Luke demanded coldly.
The
smile softened and became more natural. "I agree with your assessment that
it was an action of war. I do not speak of this to frighten or upset you, but
to warn you. No matter what happens in the future -- even if your rebellion somehow manages to defeat the Empire
-- there will always be people who will
wish to harm you, to avenge the loved ones you took from them. Millions of
parents, wives-- children who will grow up knowing you were the one who left
them fatherless. It's a terrible burden. How do you face it?"
He
was colder than he'd been on Hoth, terribly cold, so cold that shivers were running
through him. He hugged himself, tucking frozen fingers in his armpits, glaring
at the physician who appeared quite comfortable. "It's freezing in
here," he accused.
The
other man stood. "No, it isn't." Quester sighed. "I'll leave.
I've upset you, I know, but you need to face this reality. It will be with you
for all your life. You will never again have a moment's peace until you learn
to accept it."
"I
thought you were my--" He shut his mouth on the plea he'd almost blurted.
At
the door, the doctor stopped. "Your friend? I do not give my friendship so
readily. But," Quester stretched out his arm and clasped Luke's shoulder,
"neither am I your enemy. You need someone to talk to and confide in. As
your physician, I can be that person. Friendship may come in time. Good
evening."
"Good
ev -- it's not evening," he
complained to the closed door. Friendship may come in time. Luke stood still,
drowning in the ice that surrounded him.
In
time?
How
much time?
He
would be a captive forever.
In
time.
Too
soon, the lights went out for the night, but he stood there still, a captive of
both the Empire and his own horrified realizations.
It
was obvious, as a few more "days" elapsed, that the Imperials were
attempting to manipulate his time-sense to confuse him. Days and nights were
passing in quick succession, though sometimes the days were endless and the
nights over shortly after they had begun. Even though he realized the trickery,
Luke was becoming disoriented. He was so conditioned that he could not sleep
when he had the chance, anticipating the sudden lights and bells that would
wake him should he drowse. If there was some Jedi discipline to overcome this
problem, he hadn't learned it and had been unable to find it on his own.
Meditation was impossible; he just couldn't do it with so many distractions.
There
is no try. Only do or do not.
"Yeah,
I'd like to see you meditate here," he muttered resentfully.
Resolutely, he focused on the databanks,
determined to find his father, though often the words blurred and his
concentration slid away. It was on the tenth or twelfth day-- or maybe it was
the third or the fiftieth, Luke had no idea --
that his blurry eyes found a list that caused him to force his mind to pay
attention.
Padawans. A word from an ancient
tongue meaning "learners". The title given to Jedi students.
Rubbing
his eyes, Luke quickly scanned the tiny print, squinting in an attempt to make
it clearer. There were at least a hundred names, and there he was -- Skywalker, Anakin. Dragging his finger
across the screen, he found the other name: Master Kenobi.
So,
his father had been Ben's student... but he already knew that, didn't he? Ben
had said so. And Ben had said something else, too, something that Luke couldn't
quite remember.
Stabbing
the keys with near-blindness, he resorted the list by Master. There were several
names under "Kenobi", but he recognized none of them except his
father's. What was it Ben had said? It was something important, he was sure of
that, but he couldn't quite remember.... Something about... another student,
was that it? "Just a minute," he mumbled, pressing the heels of his
hands against his forehead, "just a minute. I know this. I know it I know
it I know -- Noooo! Sith be damned!"
The
room plunged into darkness, the monitor flickering and going black.
He
hadn't closed his eyes, so when the lights came on with dazzling brightness, he
was blinded.
"Good
morning, Luke."
From
the depths of the armchair, he hooded his eyes with one hand and struggled to
glare at Quester. "Is it?"
"Time
for breakfast. You look pale. When was the last time you ate?"
"How
in hells would I know?" he snapped, lowering his hand but still blinking
in the glare. "You son of a bitch, you've--you've changed time!"
The
physician sent him a concerned look as he placed the tray on the table. "I
don't understand what you mean. Come and eat, have some kafin. You'll feel
better."
Unsteadily,
he rose and managed the few steps to the table where he pulled out a chair and
sat heavily. "I don't feel very well," he admitted. "Kinda
dizzy."
"You'll
feel better after you eat," Quester repeated. "Drink the kafin."
He slathered orange jam on a slice of toast and held it out. "Take this.
Good," he added as Luke obeyed. "How's your research going? May I
look?"
"Be
m'guest," he mumbled, gesturing vaguely, washing down the toast with
kafin.
"Ah,
a list of Kenobi's Jedi students. Fascinating. And here's your father."
"Father,"
Luke repeated dreamily. He gulped more kafin. It tasted sweet, so sweet, and he
liked it very much. "He was a
student of mine...."
"Of
yours? You mean a student of Kenobi's?"
"Ben...."
"Stay
with me, Luke."
"...student
of mine...."
"He
was a student of mine," the voice repeated.
"Yeah...'til...
wanna sleep...."
"Not
yet. Luke...he was a student of mine until...?"
"...until
he turned...turned...." The world was thick with gray clouds that made it
impossible to think. All he wanted to
do was drift with them. All he wanted to do was just...let...go....
*
* *
"This
is taking too long," Vader interrupted the recitation. He had never been a
patient man and now, with his son held tightly in his grasp, he wished to wait
no longer. "You have not asked him about the Rebel fleet."
"It takes longer, but it is the best way,
My Lord," Quester replied earnestly, "with minimum damage to the
subject."
"The
Force will mitigate any damage."
"My
Lord, we are making great progress. His Force sensitivity makes him more
susceptible to the drugs and sleep deprivation. A few more days of this
and--"
"My
decision is not subject to discussion, Doctor. Do it."
For
a moment he thought the physician might rebel, but the officer only nodded and
strode from the deck, his back straight, his anger clear. Vader smiled
slightly. Quester was a complex man, and his manipulation of Luke, along with
his own reactions to his first foray into delicate interrogation, would
determine if he had a future as a useful tool for the Dark Lord.
*
* *
He
was familiar with the expression "pounding head", but he had never
experienced one until now. Luke groaned and straightened, using his hands to
prop himself up. His back ached from slumping across the table, but at least
he'd gotten some sleep.
"So
why don't I feel better?" he mumbled.
Forcing
himself into the shower, he stood, leaning against the wall, under a torrent of
cold water in an attempt to clear his senses. Once dressed and feeling cleaner,
if not more alert, he checked the pantry listlessly. There was nothing in it
that didn't have to be prepared in some way, and he had little energy to work
with. For the first time since his imprisonment, he pressed the com button to
ask for help.
The
gray-haired doctor appeared on the screen. "Do you need something,
Commander?"
Luke...hadn't
the physician called him Luke?
"Food. I'm hungry."
His words sounded garbled, and he cleared his throat. "Can I have lunch? Or...dinner? What time is it?" It
was suddenly of paramount importance that he know the time. Or the day. Anything that would give him a frame of
reference in which to exist.
"I
have a patient now, but I will be there later," Quester replied briskly.
"In the meanwhile, I suggest that you return to your research. Lord Vader
will be expecting answers soon."
The
screen flicked off. Answers. What in hells kind of answers did Vader
want? Anyway, Luke thought with a
touch of his old spirit, Vader isn't the only one who wants answers. So do I.
He
sat down in front of the computer monitor. The list of padawans stared back at
him. Ben Kenobi's students.
... a student of mine until he turned to
evil.
Vader.
"Yes!" His memory wasn't gone, only impaired, and
the damned Imps were doing it to him. But he remembered, he remembered! Scanning the names
again, he confirmed that Vader wasn't listed. Why not? Had he been taken off the padawan roll call
when he was disgraced?
Determined
to find an answer, Luke reset the computer's search mode. Immediately it
responded with a screen packed with information, including images, of one
"Obi-Wan Kenobi". Odd that he hadn't found this information during
his earlier searches. He studied the
face of a young Ben, seeing little resemblance to the man he had known, other
than the piercing eyes. If only there was a photograph of his father....
He
scanned the headings, stopping at "Kenobi, Fall of the Jedi
and". Though he was hungry, he hoped
Quester wouldn't show up before he'd read this. Rubbing his eyes to clear his
vision, he scanned the summary eagerly. It was with some disappointment that he
saw this was not about Vader and how he and Palpatine destroyed the Jedi.
Instead it referred to Kenobi's disappearance and presumed death after a fight
with one of his padawans.
That
had to be the link to Vader! He searched again, "Kenobi fight
padawan", which returned more results than he had anticipated. Seems as
though Kenobi and his padawans had been in a lot of battles. Drawing a deep breath, he searched again,
this time adding "death" to the parameters.
And there it was. "...though both Master Kenobi and Padawan Skywalker were
lost after this fight to the death," he read aloud.
"So,
Vader, you thought you'd killed them. But they both lived." With a tight smile, Luke expanded the
notation, scrolling backward.
...unexpected
betrayal by his padawan, Kenobi was able to defeat Skywalker, though both
Master Kenobi and Padawan Skywalker were lost after this fight to the death.
Blinking,
Luke reread the partial sentence several times. It didn't make sense. He
scrolled back further. There had to be a reference to Vader somewhere.
...confronted
Skywalker, who had become Senator Palpatine's protégé and was suspected of
masterminding the vicious attack that left the Jedi Council decimated.
He
scrolled back, fear and rage blinding him to all but a few descriptive words.
angry
impatient
arrogant
ambitious
...leaving
Kenobi with no choice but to eliminate his former student.
Ben...Ben,
it was Ben, not Vader...?
"Ben,
why didn't you tell me?" he whispered, dazed. He was not prepared to think beyond the lie.
You
lied to me.
You
lied.
He
stared at the monitor screen, but no longer saw anything.
Ben
had killed his father. Or thought he
had killed him, if Vader was to be believed.
But why? And why had Ben told
him that Vader killed Anakin? Why had
he wanted to set Luke on a path of vengeance against an innocent man? Not that Vader was all that innocent,
but....
He
stared at the door as it slid open. Quester and Krish Starflyer, both carrying
trays. "Thought we'd join you for dinner," Krish announced.
"If
you don't mind," Quester added politely.
"Of
course not," he said numbly. They were probably both intelligence agents.
Why else would a physician and an Imperial Captain of the Guards want to spend
time with a Rebel prisoner? But if they
were agents, they were damn good ones. Or maybe Luke Skywalker was just slow to
clue in to the truth.
Ben,
not Vader.
Krish
was talking, but Luke paid no attention to him. He watched through narrowed
eyes as Quester leaned over the monitor. "Obi-Wan Kenobi killed your
father?" the physician mused aloud as he read.
"You
sound surprised." Luke shifted his gaze to Starflyer, though he addressed
Quester. "You're a good actor."
There
was a subtle change in Krish's eyes, the silent, shared recognition of foes.
"Why
wouldn't I be surprised?" the doctor asked. "I thought Lord Vader had
killed-- or reportedly killed-- your father."
Krish's
gaze lowered to the food as he arranged the dishes on the table.
"Did
you?" Luke asked slowly. "Oddly enough, Vader isn't mentioned
anywhere in the documentation. He's not listed as one of Kenobi's
students."
"Well,
he wouldn't be, would he?" Quester returned to the table. "Have
something to eat. You're overwrought."
Overwrought.
That word did not begin to explain what he was feeling. Luke remained standing,
staring down at the other two as they loaded their plates. "What do you
mean? Why wouldn't Vader be listed? Ben said Vader was one of his
students."
"'Darth
Vader' is a title, not a name," the physician replied coolly. "I
thought you understood that."
A title, not a name.
A
title, not a name.
Then
Vader was on the list. He was one
of those names.
...confronted
Skywalker, who had become Senator Palpatine's protégé and was suspected of
masterminding the vicious attack that left the Jedi Council decimated.
Skywalker.
...unexpected
betrayal by his padawan, Kenobi was able to defeat Skywalker...
Skywalker.
...though
both Master Kenobi and Padawan Skywalker were lost after this fight to the
death.
Skywalker.
... a student of mine until he turned to
evil.
Skywalker.
Vader.
...I
promise I will not harm your father....
Vader.
Skywalker.
Vader.
Vader.
Vader.
"Luke,
you're upset. Sit down."
With
a roar, he flung off the hand that dared to touch him. All his control
evaporated, the urge to do violence possessed him like a demon, and he felt
fury and terror beyond anything he had experienced before. Krish went flying
across the room, crashing against the wall, sliding down to land in a limp
heap. The door opened quickly, but
before he could react to the intruders, he heard the hiss of a hypo and felt a
prick against his neck.
Then
he was swallowed by oblivion.
It
wasn't blessed sleep that he was waking from.
He'd been knocked unconscious several times in his young life, but this
was different. Lethargy infected his
limbs like a disease. Or perhaps he was
paralyzed. Cautiously, Luke turned his
head.
This
wasn't his room. This was a cell. Gray, harsh, sterile. A rough blanket scratched his body, and he
sat up slowly, clutching it to him when he realized he was naked. A wave of
nausea hit him, but he managed to swallow the bile and lean back against the
cold durasteel wall.
It
was difficult to think. Or to even know
what to think about first. He didn't want to think, so he simply
sat, staring blankly at the opposite wall.
Two
guards entered, one with a rifle pointed at him, the other with a tray that
contained a plasticene bowl and cup.
Luke watched, rousing himself when they headed out again.
"Why
am I here?"
The
door closed.
After
awhile, he stood, staggering a little as he crossed to the table.
He
ate. He vomited.
The
lights went out.
He
slept.
The
lights came on.
They
brought more food, not speaking.
"Why
am I here?"
The
door closed.
He
ate. He vomited.
The
lights went out.
He slept.
They
brought more food, not speaking.
"Why
am I here?"
The
door closed.
He
ate. He vomited. He slept.
The
lights came on.
The
cycle repeated itself over and over until he lost count of how many times. Maybe it was weeks. Or months.
But it didn't really matter. He
was exhausted, demoralized, and surely in shock. Probably the unappealing food was drugged, slowing his mind and
turning his stomach. It didn't really
matter.
It
wasn't until Rayl Quester arrived that something mattered to him. After so long, here was someone to talk to.
His
legs were too weak to hold him up, but he stood anyway, wrapped in the blanket,
swaying. "Why am I here?"
The
brown eyes looked at him strangely.
"Did we not treat you well?"
"I...y-yes,"
he stammered, confused.
"Did
you expect to remain your comfortable accommodations?"
He
nodded.
"Indeed?"
Quester exclaimed. "Well, you
rebellious Imperials must have a different standard than we do. Murderers are held in cells, not
suites."
Round-eyed,
he stared. "I'm not a...
m-murderer." He stumbled over the
word, suddenly seeing Krish slamming against the wall. "Am I?" he asked in a whisper. ...a million
men....
"Captain
Starflyer was a fine officer and a good man."
Luke
sat heavily on the hard cot. "He's
dead? No...."
"Yes."
"No! I can't have killed him!" He replayed the moment in his mind, the rage
he felt when he discovered....
"No. He couldn't have been hurt that badly."
"Let
me help you face the truth." Dr.
Quester sat next to him and pulled a syringe from his breast pocket. "Your arm," he commanded.
"No. No more drugs. Please." He wasn't
in a position to bargain, and knew it.
"If you say I did it, I believe you. I don't need drugs."
A fog already surrounded him. He
watched with dismay as Quester grasped his arm and lined up a needle with a
vein. "I don't need
it...." This feeling of
helplessness, the inability to move...where had they come from? "Is my food drugged?" he asked,
wincing.
Clear
liquid disappeared from the syringe. He
didn't feel any different...maybe a little lightheaded.... "What is it?"
"Just
a simple truth serum. It won't hurt
you."
He
leaned against the doctor, enjoying the protective feel of another's arm around
him. "Okay."
"I'm
your friend, Luke, remember? We talked
about that."
"Did
we?" His eyelids were heavy, and
he let them close. The dark was soft
and quiet, so peaceful. "Long time
ago...."
"Yes,
a very long time ago. We talked about
your friends, remember?"
"Umm...."
"They
left you behind, remember? They went
somewhere and abandoned you in Cloud City.
Bespin."
"Vader!"
he exclaimed, bolting upright in a burst of energy.
"Vader
won't hurt you. He's gone. You're safe with me."
"Gone?" Someone was petting his hair. He relaxed again.
"Yes,
he's gone. He's left you behind, just
like your friends did. Where did they
go?"
"Don't
know."
"You know. Tell me where they went, and I'll take you to them."
To
be with Han and Leia again...and Wedge and Chewie and all his friends....
Imperials.
"No,
can't."
"You
can tell me, Luke. I'm your
friend."
Jedi. He was a Jedi. "No. Won't tell
you."
"That's
too bad, Luke. If you don't tell me, I
won't be able to help you. You're a
killer. You killed Krish. You killed a million people. You're an evil man. You're evil like Vader. Why are you like Vader?"
"Not! Not like him! I'm not!" Sobs racked
his body, and he fell sideways on the cot.
The nice voice was gone. He was
alone. Alone and evil. A killer.
Like Vader.
"Father?"
he whimpered. "Father?"
It
was dark. More than dark. He couldn't see anything. The floor was cold against his bare
skin. He'd lost his blanket.
Cautiously,
Luke crawled forward, reaching around for his blanket. His blanket was the only thing he had. He'd had it a very long time. Where had it gone? "Blanket?"
"Hello,
Luke."
Startled,
he froze. "Blanket?" he
whispered. No. Blankets couldn't talk. "Who is it?"
The
voice came from the opposite side.
"It's me. Your
friend."
Quester. "Where are you?"
"Here." It came from somewhere else. Luke swiveled his head.
"Hold
still!"
"I'm
not moving, Luke," Quester said from behind him. "You're going in circles."
He
sat, pushing his palms into the floor.
"I'm not moving."
"Yes,
you are. You're spinning."
He
was dizzy. Maybe Quester was
right. Or maybe the room was
moving. He dug his fingers into the
floor, but there was nothing to hold onto.
"Make it stop."
"I
can do that." The voice was right
in front of him. "Do you want me
to take you to your friends?"
"No! Where's Vader? I want Vader!"
"Vader
is gone, Luke. Vader isn't here."
"Not
here...?"
"Luke...are
you ready to pay for the Death Star?" came a whisper in his right ear.
He
started, but didn't move. "What do
you mean?"
"It's
time to pay. They're coming for
you. They want to make you pay."
Luke
pulled his knees to his chest and wrapped his arms around them, not speaking.
"Get
in the corner, Luke. Quickly! You'll be safe in the corner."
Of
course, the corner! It was so logical--
why hadn't he thought of that before?
Scrabbling across the floor, he found the wall. His hands slid over the smooth surface. This wasn't a corner. On his knees, he continued to the left. He would find a corner and be safe.
It
was a very big room. It was hard to
find the corner. Where was the
corner? He crawled and crawled.
"Are
you in the corner, Luke? They're
coming. Hurry! Find the corner."
He
couldn't find the corner. It wasn't there. He crawled and crawled and pounded his fists on the slick
wall. "There's no corner! Help me!"
"I
can help you. I'm your friend,
Luke. I'll take you to your friends,
just tell me how to get there.
Hurry!"
"I
can't, I can't!" Panic rose in his
throat, choking him. "No!"
"Then
I can't help you." The voice
sounded sad.
Exhausted,
Luke curled up on the floor and waited.
They were coming to get him, to make him pay. Did they ever make Vader pay?
Did they ever make his father pay?
The
world exploded in light so dazzling that he screamed in pain. He squeezed his eyes closed, pressed his
hands over them, but it was still too bright.
Curling tighter, he hid his face against his knees, trembling with
shock.
Someone
laughed.
He
rocked back and forth, not knowing what was happening and unable to
reason. There was more laughter. Talk.
It was a long time before he could open his eyes.
A
thousand naked Lukes stared at him.
All
part of him, all different parts of him, held together by gossamer threads,
fragile connections that were snapping, unraveling, dissolving into dust.
"Luke,"
he whispered.
"Luke...where
are my friends? Where did they
go?"
"Sullust,"
he told Luke dreamily. "You'll be
there soon."
"I'll
be there," Luke corrected gently.
"You won't be. You have to
pay."
"I
have to pay," another Luke said.
"No." One of them smiled at him. "Let me. I'm dead already. They
can't hurt me."
Fearfully,
he stretched out one finger to touch that Luke. Instead of human warmth, he found--
Cold.
Hard.
He
slammed his fist against Luke, and Luke shattered, pieces of him scattering
across other Lukes.
"Glass!"
he screamed. "Mirrors, all
mirrors!" He staggered to his
feet, smashing at all of them, pounding his fury at them, smearing blood across
the shards, hating them all-- all the Imperials who tricked him, Quester,
Vader-- Vader, Vader, his father!
"I hate you!"
Bits
of other people were reflected around him.
He broke them, too, beating against them until Quester got hold of him,
stabbed him again with that huge damned needle, stabbed him again and again--
A
black cloud rolled in, a storm that swept him up, claimed him, held him close,
warm so warm, and said....
"Give
me my son."
...the
last words he heard.
The
lights were on. Luke opened his eyes,
blinking. A computer hummed in the next
room. He sat up.
This
was his bed. This was his room, his
prison-suite. This was a plain jumpsuit
he was wearing. But where were the mirrors? Mirrors and blood....
He
raised his hands. No blood. No cuts. No scars.
He
rose and padded barefoot into the living area.
He stood in the center of the room, afraid to think.
The
door slid open. Quester and Krish Starflyer entered, both carrying trays.
"Thought we'd join you for dinner," Krish announced.
"I
hope you don't mind company," Quester added politely.
He
couldn't tell if they were real. If he
spoke, would his dream end?
Krish
was talking, but Luke paid no attention to the words of a ghost. He watched as
Quester leaned over the monitor. "Obi-Wan Kenobi killed your father?"
the physician mused aloud as he read.
"I thought Lord Vader had killed-- or reportedly killed-- your
father."
"Vader
isn't listed as one of Kenobi's students," Luke whispered slowly.
"Well,
he wouldn't be, would he?" Quester returned to the table. "Have
something to eat. You're overwrought."
Luke
remained standing, staring down at the other two as they loaded their plates.
"Why wouldn't he be listed?" he asked, reading his lines in this
macabre play.
"'Darth
Vader' is a title, not a name," the physician replied coolly. "I
thought you understood that."
A
title, not a name.
Anakin
Skywalker's title.
It
was so simple, so obvious. He should
have seen it earlier.
Hadn't he seen it earlier?
"Can
you help me wake up?" he asked the doctor.
Quester
smiled faintly. "You're not
sleeping. Sit down and eat."
He
sat. Krish speared a large square of
dark meat and put it on Luke's plate.
Quester added cooked vegetables.
Luke stared.
"Eat
it," Quester ordered.
He
obeyed, chewing and swallowing, tasting nothing. "Is Vader back?"
"Back? He didn't go anywhere."
Vader's
gone, he's left you.... "I want to see
him."
"Why?"
Slowly,
he raised his eyes to the physician's profile.
"I want to see him."
Quester
paused with the fork midway to his mouth and looked at Luke for a long, silent
moment before replying, "I'll let him know."
"So,"
Krish interjected brightly, "how was your day? Aren't you getting tired of all that research? Maybe you can come with me to the gym one
day, work out. Would you like
that?"
It
occurred to him that Quester hadn't addressed Krish. Which he wouldn't, if Krish were dead. "Doctor," he asked carefully, "is someone else
here?"
"Are
you running a fever?" A cool hand
rested on his forehead. "No. Are you feeling otherwise unwell?"
Why
did he have to repeat everything.
"Is someone else here?"
"Am
I invisible?" Krish joked.
Luke
folded his arms and waited, his gaze fixed on Quester.
"Captain
Starflyer is here. Can't you see
him?"
Agitated,
he pushed back his chair and stood.
"Get out. Tell Vader I want
to see him. Now."
"I
don't know if--"
"NOW!" he shouted,
pushed beyond his limits of understanding.
Only Vader could help him differentiate between the truth and the
falsehoods, the reality and the hallucinations. Only Vader could help... if he would.
As
soon as they left, with a furious gesture Luke swept the trays from the table,
sending their contents splattering across the floor. Panting, he clenched his
fists, desperate to destroy more, to find a release for the confusion and rage
inside him. But there was nothing left to break in his prison -- except the computer and its peripherals, and
he needed them. Taking deep breaths, he focused on calming himself. Slowly
unwinding his fingers, he stretched, trying to find relaxation in movement.
After several minutes, he realized he was as calm as he was going to be in
these circumstances and sat down at the monitor, determined to find the
information again.
To
prove that he hadn't been lost in a nightmare.
To
prove that he wasn't losing his mind.
He
keyed in "Kenobi fight padawan".
Instead
of dozens of entries, there was only one, and it proved to be a nearly generic
reference to Jedi training.
"Kenobi
fight padawan death".
Nothing.
But
he remembered-- he remembered!
Kenobi
confronted Skywalker, who had become Senator Palpatine's protégé and was
suspected of masterminding the vicious attack that left the Jedi Council
decimated. Despite the unexpected betrayal by his padawan, Kenobi was able to
defeat Skywalker, though both Master Kenobi and Padawan Skywalker were lost
after this fight to the death.
He
couldn't have made up all that, could he?
Was his mind so disturbed that he could have hallucinated the strange
tortures, the confusion...? Then there
was his accidental killing of Krish Starflyer, the bizarre behavior of Dr.
Quester...
I'm
going mad.
His
fingers began shaking so much that he could no longer type. He folded his arms, trying to stop the
quivers from rippling upward and infecting his entire body.
I'm
going mad.
Was
Vader not Anakin Skywalker? Was that belief a monster born in the depths of his
irrationality? Why wasn't the Force helping him? Yoda hadn't taught him how to
cope with insanity.
The
lights went out, but that didn't matter any more. There were no established day
and night cycles in this nightmare of an existence. There were only lights and
no-lights. Perhaps if he thought that
way, then it wouldn't matter how his captors manipulated his time-sense. Maybe
that was the way to cope, by ignoring what he saw and heard and was told, and
relying on the Force to guide him. Maybe he needed to let go, like in the Death
Star trench, just let go and be guided.
Peace. He needed to find peace.
Luke
closed his eyes, embracing the darkness and accepting it as a passing moment
that he did not need to fight. He drifted into meditation, uncaring about the
passage of time, and was content.
When
"daylight" returned, he felt calmer, more centered than he had since
leaving Dagobah. Focusing on his search of the databanks, he once again entered
the key phrases. There! For a moment,
the names flashed on the monitor: Kenobi Skywalker Palpatine. Then they were gone,
leaving the usual list of non-information. Somehow he was being blocked from
seeing what he sought. If the Force had allowed him a momentary glimpse,
eventually it would reveal everything.
All he had to do was practice.
"Good
morning," Dr. Quester said from the doorway. "Did you have a good sleep?"
"Hello,"
he replied softly, refusing to be baited. They were watching him, knew his
every move, knew that he had sat in front of the computer, in the dark, for
however long the "night" had been.
"Is Vader coming?" He
was prepared for the inevitable refusal...or, at best, a long delay while Vader
left him fretting and anxious.
"I
am not coming, I am here," the deep voice
rumbled.
Luke
spun around in the chair, noting that Quester was also taken by surprise.
"My
Lord," the physician said with a nod, quickly recovering his composure,
"I did not realize--"
"Why
would you? You are dismissed."
With
a sharp click of heels and crisp bow, Quester departed, leaving Luke to wonder
just how long the doctor had been in military service. For a moment, he immersed himself in the
steady sounds of Vader's measured breaths; there was a strange sort of comfort
in it. Luke rose from the chair and
faced the Dark Lord.
"Thank
you for coming."
"You
sent for me."
"Yes. But I didn't really think you would
come."
Vader
moved, beginning to prowl around the quarters like a caged cat. "Nor did I. I am unused to being summoned quite so...proprietarily."
A
very odd feeling swept through him, leaving him to wonder if it was his emotion or Vader's. He
felt strangely warm, almost happy, and, most alarmingly, he felt relaxed. Maybe Vader was manipulating him, trying to
lower his defenses, but....
...there was that moment he remembered...was
a dream or a hallucination...or was it real?
"You
saved me," he said to the restless man.
"It
would have been a waste to allow you to fall."
"Not
in Cloud City." He shook his head.
"Yesterday...or...whenever it was.
In the room of mirrors. You
picked me up and saved me and said...."
"You
were dreaming, child."
"No."
The barest suggestion of a smile touched his lips. Child. The man known as Darth Vader would say that
to the child of no other man. "You
said, give
me my son."
Vader's
back was to him; nonetheless, Luke felt his surprise and uncertainty. "You're Anakin Skywalker," he
pressed. "You're my father. You and Ben fought. I found that in one of the databases."
"Indeed?" Vader whirled. "Show me."
"You
know I can't," Luke replied calmly.
"It's been blocked somehow.
You wanted me to find out, so why are you denying it? You were a Jedi, and now you are... this... a monster."
The
harsh laugh, when amplified by the vocoder, sounded more angry than amused.
"You have imagined all this. Your grip on reality is tenuous at best. I will instruct Dr. Quester to run tests to
determine your mental stability."
Without
even a nod, the dark giant strode toward the door.
"Father!"
The
naming didn't cause the Dark Lord to hesitate.
Anakin
Skywalker was gone or perhaps, Luke mused sadly, had never been in the room.
Maybe Ben had told the truth. Maybe his father was truly dead.
*
* *
In
the refuge of his personal quarters, Darth Vader pressed the switch to raise
the blast screen and reveal the infinite starscape to his gaze. Much of his last twenty years had been spent
in space and, truth be told, as beautiful as it was, he was tired of it. He longed to feel land beneath his bare
feet: the soft grasses of Naboo or even the hot sands of Tatooine. Any organic surface would be preferable to
the unyielding durasteel, any quiet sounds of passage better than the constant
clacking of boots. He wondered if Luke missed his home.
But
no, the boy was young and still eager for adventures. He had probably been bored on Tatooine, particularly on that
remote moisture farm. Yet the hard life
had done Luke no harm; indeed, Vader reflected, the boy's strength of will made
him proud. Many men lost their senses
when subjected to the intensity of mental torture, yet his son had not only
weathered it but had apparently been strengthened by the adversity.
Torture. The thought of it applied to his son made
him wince. Often he had enjoyed inflicting pain on others...but this was
different. It was not merely that he
had to erect blocks in his own mind to prevent Luke's pain from reaching
him. No, it was something more. A feeling less than possession, more than
indifference. Luke was his boy...his and
Padme's. With such a heritage, it was
expected that Luke would be both strong and stubborn. It was an added bonus to find him so brilliantly intuitive.
But
enough musing. He turned his back on the endless vista of black and studied the
silent physician/interrogator.
"The scout ships have reported back. The Rebel fleet is not massing at Sullust. Skywalker lied to you. I told you it would not be so easy to
subvert his will."
"Perhaps
he was not lying, My Lord."
Quester showed no sign of being intimidated. "His sense of time has been affected. It could very well be that the Rebels will
indeed be at Sullust-- in the future."
It
was irritating that he had not thought of such an obvious explanation. The
trauma of his son's treatment was distracting...or perhaps it was simply Luke's
presence, reflecting so brightly in the Force, that ruffled his
equanimity. "He is still strongly
sided with the Rebels."
"Yes,
My Lord." The physician was silent
for a moment before venturing cautiously, "It is possible that he would
respond to a more physically demanding regimen of interrogation."
Torture. Ignoring his uncharacteristic queasiness, he
made a scornful noise. "A Jedi
does not have the physical limitations of an ordinary mortal. It would be difficult, if not impossible, to
expect results from physical torture alone.
It is his mind that is most vulnerable.
Whatever method you choose," he shook his finger at Quester,
"I do not want him permanently damaged.
He must see the error of his path.
I want him eager to join me and serve the Empire."
"You
could just ask him."
Aghast
at the other's imprudence, Vader curled his fingers into a fist. "I warn you, Doctor, do not mock me, or
you will learn the true meaning of torture."
"I
did not mean to offend, My Lord. But you did say that the Force would mitigate
the effects of physical torture on the--"
"I
must go to Coruscant to report to His Majesty and attend to other duties,"
he interrupted, effectively ending the discussion. "While I am gone, you may apply whatever methods you deem
appropriate. But do not disappoint me,
Doctor." Once again, he faced the
galaxy, ignoring the murmurs of obeisance from his underling. Ah, Luke, the Sith Lord thought
wearily,
how long will I have to wait for you to join me? I tire of these lesser beings.
He needed more than Luke's powerful Force abilities for alliance and
companionship; he need the unquestioning loyalty of a son. The same loyalty that Padme had once shown
him.
Yes,
he
reminded himself darkly, and look how badly that ended.
*
* *
When
the guards came for him, Luke followed without any idea of protesting.
Confusion still permeated his mind, and his attempts at further meditation had
been unsatisfactory. Vader was Anakin Skywalker, his father; he was almost certain of it. But
there were so many contradictions, so much that was unclear. And he was so
tired. Mind-numbingly, bone-meltingly tired.
The
stormtroopers left him in a room so compact, in all directions save one, that
it was more like a closet. It was constructed totally of black Durasteel, even
the ledge that jutted from one wall. He supposed that was to be his bed, though
it was not long enough for him to lie fully extended. Sitting on it, he studied
the four walls. The door on one, this bunk running the length of another, a sani-unit
offering no privacy on the third wall, and the fourth was simply a flat
surface. Tilting his head, he looked up and up, and was finally rewarded with a
bank of bright lights that appeared very far away, but dazzling nonetheless.
It
was an ugly cell, but in a way it was more acceptable than his quarters. At
least here it was obvious he was a prisoner.
The
door slid open. A smart, crisp gray uniform filled his vision as Dr. Quester
took two short strides into the center of the cell. "Hello, Luke. Are you
feeling better?" Two more strides took him to the bunk, where he sat down
at Luke's side.
"Was
I sick?" Nervously, he picked at the crease in the trouser of his jumpsuit
"You
were running a high fever." A hand briefly rested on his forehead.
"You're better now. Evidently the
medication I gave you, though it cured your malady, caused you to hallucinate
quite badly. I apologize that I did not have your medical record and so could
not predict the ill effect. I trust you're more rational now?"
He
laughed, though he didn't understand why he was amused. "I have no idea.
Have I been rational since I've been here?"
Quester
ignored his question and removed a small portfolio from his tunic. "I've
brought something to show you. It's something I... well, I haven't shown anyone
else." He opened the folder and pulled out a thick sheet. "It's my
son. Raylan."
A
brief spark of his old curiosity ignited. Luke took the sheet and studied the
image. It was a blond youth, his eyes dark like his father's, and the resemblance
to Quester was unmistakable. Raylan was wearing an Imperial uniform, and his
martial appearance was at odds with the wide grin on his face.
"Lord
Vader thought that...."
He
looked from the image to Quester, thinking that this could almost be a likeness
of the physician at a younger age.
"Vader?"
The
doctor hesitated. "He said that Jedi can get...impressions from images or
possessions. I thought maybe you could tell me something about.... You see,
this is the last image I have of him. It was taken as he was leaving for his
first posting. On Ord Mantell. I never saw him again. Do you...can you tell me
if he suffered, or if...?"
Aghast,
Luke stared at the older man. "I don't know how to do that! I've never tried." Guiltily, he
remembered Yoda's admonition. Do or do not.... "Just...give me a moment."
Focusing
on the image, he tried to clear his mind. But his concentration wandered,
reluctant to stay centered on the task he was attempting. Eyes squeezed shut,
he refused to give up. Without his conscious direction, his fingers rubbed
across the slick sheet. An image sped through his head like a bolt of
lightning-- young Raylan joking with a comrade -- and then it was gone.
"What
did you see?" Fingers dug into his arm.
"I...just
him laughing. Wait, let me try -- let
me do it again!" Excited, he tried to put aside his immediate thoughts of
ways to use this new, untapped resource inside him. Drawing several deep
breaths, he consciously relaxed. Fragments of scenes came to him, disappearing
too quickly. Past,
present, future...
Yoda had said something about that. Releasing all awareness of his
surroundings, Luke allowed himself to be swept into an invisible tide. It
pulled him to and fro, swinging him like a cradle, and then he saw...
sounds
-- could that be laser fire?
looking
up from the monitor
a
figure, a civilian, but he's aiming a lasergun
he's
aiming
he's
Luke
started, his hand flying to chest, clutching the fabric, feeling for a ragged
hole, the rawness of seared flesh.
Nothing.
"What
did you see?"
Dazed,
he stared at the other man as he gathered his thoughts. "Your son didn't
suffer," he said, his voice shaking. "He didn't have time. It
happened so fast. He didn't even have time to be afraid."
"Praise
be," Quester whispered fervently. Closing his eyes, he leaned back against
the hard wall. Luke watched, waiting until the dark eyes opened again,
unsurprised to see the remnants of wetness in them. "Thank you."
He
nodded, then asked hesitantly, "Doctor, will you tell me why I'm here, in
this room?"
The
officer stood. "For this very purpose. The lack of distractions will
improve your ability to concentrate. I will not leave Raylan's image with you,
for it is the only one I have, but here is another. This is his friend Conor. I
suggest you practice this new skill, and perhaps you will win Lord Vader's
approval."
The
suggestion that he would want Vader's approval was so outrageous and
insulting that Luke couldn't find words to respond. Quester departed quickly,
leaving him alone in the strange and uncomfortable cell. Curious, he picked up
the image that had been left. Another young man, his age, this one with dark
hair and skin and cat-like eyes. Deciding it was the best use of his time under
the circumstances, Luke focused and found it easier this time to catch glimpses
of this one's life. The scenes were like passing shadows across his mind: a
home, plant-rich surroundings, a girl with a sweet smile, a mother who hugged
him, a father who clapped his back, an Imperial uniform -- unexpectedly, Luke felt Conor's pride. Then he
was no longer simply seeing...he was feeling.
He was so proud to be accepted into the
Imperial Navy. True, he was only a stormtrooper, but he would rise through the
ranks. Someday he would be a captain and have a planetside posting, then he
could marry Cherlene, and have the children that they both.... But enough
dreaming about the future, he had to check out this sorry excuse for a ship
that they had tractored in. It appeared abandoned, but Vader said to check it
thoroughly, and what Vader said, everyone did. It appeared empty, all right,
but what was that noise? He whirled, and had a brief glimpse of a blond kid
before something large and heavy came at his head and --
Luke
jerked away, the image slipping from his numb fingers. The Death Star. The
trooper he had clobbered to steal his armor. You bastard, he snarled, wishing
that Quester could hear him. You filthy, rotten--
He
tore the image into pieces, shredding them as small as possible. But the
memories of Conor were inside him like a poison, infecting him with a guilt he
shouldn't have to feel. He hadn't meant to kill the youth, only knock him
out. "It was war!" he screamed to
the walls, knowing that somewhere Quester was watching. "Do you hear me?
It was war!"
There
was a movement above him, and he leaped to his feet, backing into a corner. You'll be safe in
a corner.
But it wasn't an attack. A single sheet drifted down, caught in the breeze of
the air circulator. It landed near his feet. He bent to pick it up. It was another
image, another man, an older one this time. "No," he murmured, but
though he had easily learned to see, he did not know how to stop the seeing. Or
how to stop the feeling. And this time the
feeling was more intimate.
"Prepare
to fire."
Yeah,
blast these damn Rebels to hell, then maybe I can head home. This is supposed
to be my last tour, but there's talk of extending everyone's duty, all because
of these damn Rebels. Hells, they've kept me away from my kids long enough.
"Five."
I
hope they haven't forgotten what I look like.
"Four."
Bettany
was so little when I left.
"Three."
She
might not remember me.
"Two."
But
she'll get used to me. We'll get acquainted all over ag--
"One."
What
in hell is that?
What?
What!
A
flash of bright light, and the vision was gone.
The
Death Star.
That was Luke Skywalker
blowing up the Death Star.
Angrily,
he threw the image aside, shuddering as another one fell from the distant
ceiling.
And
another.
And
another and another, until it was snowing images.
He
ducked, scurrying around the room, trying to avoid touching them, but they were
everywhere. Men, voices, surprise
turning to horror, to terror...to death. Death after death. Death Star, aptly
named. Fighter pilots, their ships exploding; Hoth troopers screaming as their
Walkers toppled.
Help
me
Mom?
Dad?
I
love you
Who
the hell is that
Watch
it watch it
Noooooo
Oh
shit
Rebel
bastard, hold still and --
Unexpectedly,
sunshine, flowers, green grass, blue water.
Remember
the day I asked you? The picnic. We both knew I was conscripted and would soon
have to leave, but it was so beautiful, I'll remember that day forever...I know
I'm dying...but I'll remember that day forever....
Luke
opened his eyes. He was standing in paper images up to his calves, and they
were still falling, fluttering from above like a million angels of death. They
whispered to him...see
me, be me...live my life, live my death....
See
me
be
me
see
me
be
me
see
me die
be
me die
be
me
He
crawled onto the bench, standing on it, trying to escape. But they brushed his
arms, his head, landed on his shoulders. Boys barely old enough to enlist,
running away from home; older men, career soldiers, duty above all else, destroy the
Rebel terrorists, they bring death, they only want to kill....
He
sank down, arms clasped around his knees, rocking slightly, wanting to hide.
But
there was nowhere to hide, and he couldn't tell if these were his thoughts he
was trying to hide from...or theirs.
Hide,
hide, to be safe, we must hide....
The
million voices in his head drowned all hope of finding his own.
"Are
you tired, Luke? Would you like to
rest?"
It
was unexpected that he was no longer alone.
Luke opened his eyes. He was
still on the bench, in the black room with the white floor. White because of the men, thousands of
them...a million. But he was warm.
Someone was holding him.
He
buried his face against Quester's tunic, twisting his fingers in the material.
"You
must be very tired. You've been in here
a long time." His hair was petted
and stroked. "Would you like to
leave, Luke? I'm your friend; I can
take you away from here."
He
nodded.
"I
can't hear you."
"Y--"
He choked, tried again.
"Yes...."
"Yes,
what? Be polite."
"Yes...please..."
"That's
better. You know, Luke, Lord Vader
would like you to work with him and stop being a Jedi. Would that be all right?"
Jedi. It was the one thing he had to hold onto,
maybe the only thing they couldn't take from him. He shook his head.
"I
was afraid of that. He's gone away for
awhile, so he won't know you refused, but I'll have to leave you here
anyway. I'll have to bring images of
the families of the men you killed, so you'll know how they feel. They're all very sad. And they're very angry with you, because
you're a terrorist."
"N--not! I'm not a t-terrorist!" He clenched the fabric tighter. "No more, don't bring more!"
"Well...." There was a hesitation, and his heart
leaped. "If I don't bring the
images, you will still have to be punished.
You killed so many people. I
don't want to put you on trial for murder, for there's no question that you
would be found guilty and executed. I
don't want that to happen because I'm your friend. Do you want that?"
Shuddering,
he pushed his head against the hand that lay atop it. Quester began stroking again.
"If you don't want a trial and you don't want to see the images,
all that remains is some sort of physical punishment. Is that what you want?"
"No...."
"Luke,
it was to be one of the three choices," the patient voice continued. "How would it be if I punished
you? Since I'm your friend, I won't
hurt you as much as the guards would."
He
sighed and finally agreed grudgingly,
"'Kay. Just...get me out of
here...please."
"All
right, whatever you want. Wait
here." Quester stood, looking tall
and very official to Luke's frightened gaze.
He opened the door and spoke quietly.
Two guards entered.
Luke
shrank back as they came toward him with binders. Prying apart his unresisting limbs, they clamped the metal around
his wrists, fastening them behind his back.
One sentry bent and bound his ankles, leaving him barely able to shuffle
his feet. With a guard on either side
of him, holding his arms and half-dragging him, Luke was led out of the room
and through the corridors.
People
stopped what they were doing to stare at him.
Murmurs pierced his consciousness: is that him... look it's skywalker... death
star... killer... terrorist filth... my brother died... execution's too good
for the likes of... just let me get my hands on.... He
closed his eyes so he didn't have to see their faces, the rage and pain in
their eyes. Leia had never warned him,
no one had. Han should have known. Or the generals. Someone should have told him.
You're
wanted by the Empire, they said, but nothing more, and he hadn't really thought
about what that meant. You're wanted by
the Empire, like
it was a heroic thing that made him special, more important than the other
Rebels. Vader wanted him, too...
because he was a Jedi... or because he was a killer? Or....
Father?
The
idea that had seemed so horrific was now appealing. Maybe he was Vader's son, like Vader in every way. If he was Vader's son, people would expect him to be a killer, and
it would be all right. It would be his
role. He wouldn't be a terrorist if
people knew he was Vader's son. Luke Vader--of course he's a killer, what
else could you expect? It would be all
right. He would be a warrior, not a
killer. He would be a Sith, not a Jedi.
Or
did Jedi kill the way he had? Were Jedi
terrorists? Ben had helped him blow up the Death
Star, had told him to trust in the Force.
But such a terrible act...had he used the Dark Side of the Force? Had Ben known he was Vader's son, a
potential Sith, and pushed him to use the Dark Side? Or was he already a Sith...like his father...?
Suddenly
it seemed that it would be much worse if Vader wasn't his father. Then there would be no excuse for what he'd
done. "Vader?" he whispered
weakly.
"Vader
isn't here," Quester hissed from behind him. "You're all mine now, Skywalker."
"What?" He tried to twist around, but the guards
yanked him forward. Dr. Quester was his
friend... but that hadn't sounded very friendly.
He
was a Rebel Terrorist; how friendly could anyone feel toward him?
It
seemed a very long way to their destination, past a lot of people who hated
him. One man, who appeared to be a
mechanic if the hydrospanner clutched in his fist was any indication, darted in
front of them as if to attack. But he
only sneered and spit on Luke before the guards pushed him aside. He could feel the spittle drying on his
cheek as he was hurried the last distance, then escorted into a cell that was
considerably larger than the last one he'd been in.
Struggling
to focus his attention on his surroundings, he saw very few furnishings. A table at the far end that held instruments
of some sort; another table that held two glasses and a pitcher; a sink, two
straight-back chairs, and nothing more, just bare walls and a tiled floor
created for ease of cleaning rather than beauty.
The
troopers led him to a point in the center of the room and removed the binders
from his wrists. Reflexively, he rubbed them, though only the left one was
abraded from the cuffs. His new, perfect, right hand was undisturbed.
"Please
lower the top of your jumpsuit, Luke," Dr. Quester asked politely,
standing in a relaxed pose, watching him closely.
His fingers trembled as he unfastened the
shirt portion and wriggled his arms out of it. The fabric drooped to his
waist. Immediately, his right hand was
grabbed by a guard and stretched overhead. From the low ceiling, a shackle
appeared and was snapped around his wrist.
The Imperial soldier bent and removed the binders from his ankles. Both guards stepped back cautiously.
"Thank
you, that will be all."
Dismissed,
the white-armored men left, and Luke was alone with Quester. His gaze locked on the physician who was
half-captor, half-comrade.
"Please
remove the rest of your clothing, Luke."
It
was a struggle to remove the shoes and socks one-handed, but he managed
awkwardly. The jumpsuit proved more
difficult. He fumbled with the
fasteners, glancing at Quester to see if he would help, but the officer
remained several meters from him, arms folded, watching without
expression. Finally, with a lot of
wriggling, he managed to get the jumpsuit to his ankles, where it stuck. Kicking at it, he only succeeded in
partially removing one leg, but it bunched around his foot.
"I
can't do it by myself," he said angrily.
"Help me!"
Quester
shook his head. "You're not a
child anymore, Luke. Figure out a way
to do it."
Since
he couldn't bend one leg at a time, there was only one way. Wrapping his fingers as best he could around
the steel apparatus that bound his wrist, he raised his feet off the floor,
bent both knees, and pulled at the fabric until it was free. When he lowered himself, pain twinged in the
prosthesis. Surprised, he looked up and
saw that the synth-skin had torn on the cuff, exposing a bit of wiring.
"The
rest," Quester said quietly.
He
had almost forgotten someone was there.
He shook his head, trying to clear his mind of the fog that seemed to
come and go at its own will.
The
doctor mistook his movement for a refusal.
"You are allowed only a single 'no' during this session, Luke. You
have now used that privilege. But you
must remove your briefs."
Panic
rumbled through him. "I didn't mean
'no'!" he exclaimed.
"I
won't tell you again."
Hastily,
he pushed down the briefs, feeling his face flush as he contorted his torso and
legs to remove them completely. Once
they were off, Quester gathered his clothing and took it across the room, where
he folded each item neatly, and placed them in a pile on one chair.
His
strange friend returned. From his
uniform pocket, he pulled a small, flat object and pressed it once. Another steel cuff descended from the
ceiling. "Your left hand, please,
Luke. Thank you," Quester added
when he complied, fastening the binder securely around his wrist so that both
arms were stretched toward the absent sky.
Another
push of the button and two clamps appeared from the floor on either side of
him, in which his ankles were wrapped.
They were shoulder-width apart, not uncomfortable, but Luke felt his
heart pounding against his chest.
"What
are you going to do?" he whispered.
"First,
we're going to talk," Quester replied absently, manipulating the remote
control until Luke's legs inched apart a bit farther.
"Then
what?"
"What
happens after that will be up to you, Luke." Another button pushed, and a hole the size of an officer's cap
opened in the floor beneath him.
He
peered down at it, seeing nothing in the blackness. "What's that?"
"That,
my little soldier, is for evacuation."
Quester sounded amused as he walked away. "Try not to miss."
Evacuation? How could he escape down that small
hole? Then he realized what it was for,
and looked away, humiliated.
The
doctor was back with a glass of clear liquid.
"Thirsty?" he teased.
"No!"
Luke exclaimed furiously.
"You've
used your one 'no', remember?"
Quester held the glass to his lips.
"Drink."
He was thirsty, and if they were going to be
here for any length of time.... With a
sigh, Luke surrendered and took a few cautious sips. Water trickled down his chin, and Quester withdrew a spotless
white handkerchief from his pocket and dabbed it gently.
"There,"
the doctor murmured. Returning the glass to the table, he opened his tunic and
reached inside. Luke flinched away when
he saw another white sheet, another image of someone else he'd killed, no
doubt.
"You
don't have to touch it. I just wanted
to show you my wife, Asile, the love of my life. If one believes in soulmates, then she is surely mine. Beautiful, isn't she?"
Wary
of trickery, Luke looked suspiciously at the image. "Yes," he admitted, relaxing as he studied a woman with
warm eyes and a sweet smile.
"Raylan's
death devastated her, as you can imagine.
But she had me-- though my duties often called me away-- and her little
brother, Medlen." The image shook
slightly, then steadied. "Medlen
was the son of her father's second marriage, so he was considerably younger
than Asile. Her stepmother was quite
busy socially, so it fell upon Asile to mother the boy. He adored her, and she him. Until she met me, he was the focus of her
life."
He
paused and turned the image so he could look at it again. Luke remained silent, watching Quester.
"After Raylan was killed, I was away
much of the time. I had decided to serve
aboard ship, helping to repair the injuries you terrorists caused. Once again, Asile focused her love on
Medlen, using him as a substitute for her lost son, I suppose. Two years ago, Medlen met a lovely woman and
married. They had a son and named him Raylan.
Asile became more of a doting grandmother than an aunt." A fond smile creased Quester's face.
"Medlen
was something of a pacifist. Through
hard work, he managed to create a successful business repairing specialized
lifts. The government of Myomar offered him a lucrative contract to service the
lifts in their hospital system. It was
a wonderful opportunity, but he would have had to spend months reviewing the
systems and performing standard maintenance as well as repairs. The distance to Ord Mirit from Myomar was so
great that the transport fare to take his wife and child was prohibitive. So he agreed to a short stint working on a
military vessel in exchange for transport for his family."
Quester
stepped closer, his eyes like chips of ice.
"So it was that Medlen, his wife, and their baby Raylan were on the
Death Star."
Luke
gasped, completely unprepared for the revelation. His eyes filled with tears.
He'd killed a baby? A woman and
a baby? Had there been more women and
children on the Death Star? But it was war, they shouldn't have
been there! "I'm sorry...."
"I
know you are." Quester patted his
cheek. "You're just a boy, hardly
older than my Raylan when he was murdered." Hand into the tunic again, returning with more images that Quester
did not share with Luke.
"Lord
Vader gave me immediate leave to go home.
He's quite good that way. So I
went. We had a memorial service for the
three of them, and on the same day attended the public memorial for the victims
of the Death Star tragedy. We came home, and while I showered, Asile blew off
half her head with our household blaster."
It
was said so matter-of-factly that at first Luke didn't understand.
"Here."
He
looked at the two images Quester held in front of him. One was the image he'd already seen of
Asile. The other was...the remains of
Asile. He recoiled, uttering a groan,
closing his eyes, though the image would be etched into his mind forever. Long blonde hair matted with blood, flesh,
bone and brain. A face shattered, burned...
a pale lilac dress soaked red.
Luke
sobbed. "...sorry sorry
sorry...I'm so sorry...."
"I'm sure that's so," Quester
continued conversationally, "but your feelings hardly matter to me. I've waited a long time to have a Rebel in
my hands...and now, to have you, of all people... you who took the love of my
life, you who destroyed my future, my happiness.... But the damned irony of the situation is that I'm expected to do
my duty. So, Luke, I'll have to ask you
about terrorist strategy, Rebel hideouts.... I'll have to encourage you to join
Vader and become our ally. When all I
really want to do..." The
physician leaned closer until Luke felt the other's hot breath on his cheek,
"...is torture you until you have no breath left to utter a scream. Until your body is mutilated and crippled
beyond endurance, yet you do not die.
Until you begin to have a glimpse into the pain I live with every
day. The things I want to do to you
give me nightmares, Luke. But I am an
Imperial officer and so must do my duty."
Quester
backed away, smiling. "And you're
just a boy, so much like Raylan. My
Lord has found his son, and I have lost mine.
He has charged me with the care and questioning of his son, and I do not
wish to disappoint him. So I'll need
your help, Luke. The sooner you tell me
what I need to know, the quicker you'll be out of here. I will hurt you if I must, but I do not wish
to test myself, or to learn the limits of a civilized man faced with an
uncivilized choice."
Luke
gulped, swallowing his tears. He
couldn't betray his friends... but his friends were terrorists. They'd done awful things and so had he. But the Imperials were bad, too-- they'd
blown up Alderaan. They'd killed Aunt
Beru and Uncle Owen.
But
his own father was an Imperial, Quester had just confirmed it.
"I'm...confused."
Quester
slipped the images back into his tunic and rebuttoned it. He withdrew the remote and pressed it until
Luke's arms were pulled higher, stretching him to his limits. "Is that uncomfortable?"
He
nodded, unable to speak. His ability to
breathe seemed to be hampered.
"Sorry. Let me fix it." Another push, two snaps and his ankles were
released, leaving him struggling to balance on tiptoes.
Quester
vanished behind him, and Luke heard him at the table. In a few moments, he returned, passing by Luke to the other
table, where he pushed the pitcher and glasses aside. "Before I ask you any questions," he began, "I'll
have to whip you, just to leave cursory marks.
Then you can confess or repent or whatever you intend, and there will be
evidence that you responded to torture.
It will save face for both of us."
Gesturing to the two dark objects on the table, he added, "You may
choose which one I will use. Do you
want the long one or the short one?"
He
craned his neck, body swaying dangerously, but couldn't see them very
well. One whip was long and thick, the
other short with many strips. "The
short one, I guess."
"Good
choice." Briskly, Quester selected
the chosen item and strode to stand beside him. Without further warning, he raised his arm and Luke heard a
whistle of air before the whip struck him.
He
screamed, totally unprepared for the shock of pain that ripped open the flesh
on his back. Without pausing, Quester
moved to the other side and repeated the punishment. Luke cried out again, feeling multiple sharp lances that
lingered. Blood dripped on the white
floor at his feet, and he realized it was running down his buttocks and
legs. It was slippery under his toes,
and he lost his precarious balance, groaning as his full weight jerked at his shoulder
joints. Struggling back to his toes, he
shivered with shock.
Quester
was in front of him, dragging the thongs across his bare chest, smearing blood
across it. "Good choice," he
repeated.
Through
tearing eyes, Luke saw that there were a dozen or more leather strips attached
to the handle, and on each strip was a sharp detail of jagged metal. The immediate pain was gone from his back,
but now it throbbed, and that felt worse than the initial blows.
"Where
is the Rebel base, Luke?" Quester asked indifferently, walking to the back
of the room.
Luke
tried to twist around to watch but was unsuccessful. "Nowhere."
There
was a chuckle near his ear, then he felt a small touch against his neck and
heard the hiss of an injection.
Immediately, the muscles in his legs slacked, and he slumped. A quiet ratcheting sound preceded a hoist
outward, and his arms were stretched far apart. He couldn't stifle a groan as
his feet were lifted from the floor and his entire weight pulled down on his
arms and shoulders. The cuffs bit into
his wrists, slicing them cruelly.
Within minutes, muscles began to cramp, and though he could heave deep breaths,
he couldn't seem to exhale. "I...
can't--" he gasped.
"No, you can't breathe well in that
position," Quester acknowledged amiably.
"Fortunately for you, my education as a physician will allow me to
bring you to the edge of unconsciousness and death, and then revive you. Unless my demons get the better of me,"
he added as an afterthought.
"K-kill
me th...then...."
"Be
a man, Luke. Surely a Jedi can endure
more pain then this. I've barely
begun. Where is the Rebel base?"
"F-fuck
you!"
The
officer stepped in front of him and slapped his face hard enough to propel it sideways,
putting more strain on his neck and causing a cramp to knife through it. "Be polite, Luke."
It
wasn't the slap that was making it hard to focus. Both his mind and his eyes were blurring. "C...can't...." he forced
out. What drug had Quester given
him? Suddenly he found logical thought
impossible and speaking difficult.
"The
inability to exhale will cause carbon monoxide levels to build first in your
lungs, then in your bloodstream. You'll
feel better for a short while, then...."
Quester stepped back and studied him, gaze sliding slowly down his
length. "You're a young man, not
bad looking... those lacerations will heal.... Your sexual organ appears
normal.... Is it functional?"
Luke
squeezed his eyes closed, feeling tears of rage and pain slipping out the
corners.
"I'm
sure your father is anticipating grandchildren, so we'll need to be careful
what we do in that area."
A
sudden jolt as his toes hit the floor made him grunt, then he gasped, exhaling
heavily and gulping oxygen into his deprived lungs. "Bastard," he managed when he could talk, scrabbling to
keep his feet from slipping into the evacuation opening.
Fingers
in his hair wrenched his head back.
"You are being rude, Luke," Quester said coldly. "I will not tolerate rudeness. Were you raised to be rude?"
"I...no-no,"
he whispered. Released, his head
slumped toward his chest.
"Then
address me with courtesy. By rights, I
should be the one cursing you, for your kind took my son, and you took the rest
of my family."
"'m
sorr--" His apology ended in an agonized shriek, for he'd been unprepared
for the lashes that whipped across his back.
The battering continued, once, twice, again and again, showing no signs
of ceasing. He screamed over and over,
then attempt to remain stoically silent but succeeding only in biting his lower
lip until he tasted blood. He grew dizzy, his moans fading to whimpers, and he
watched with glazed eyes as a pool of blood form with frightening rapidity
beneath his feet. Soon it forged a trail that flowed into the evac hole like a
dark river.
The
flogging stopped. "That's enough
for the moment. Once the pellets tear
into muscles and start ripping vessels, it's time to pause. Or so the manual states. Did I tell you that this is my first experience
with interrogation techniques? Please
let me know if you feel I'm not being effective, for I am determined to please
Lord Vader. Luke, tell me about the Rebels at Sullust."
He
wept, both because of the pulsating pain and the realization that at some time
he'd told them of the Alliance's plan to attack the new Death Star under
construction. What else had he told
them?
"What
else?" Quester repeated, and Luke realized he must have spoken aloud. "Many things, Luke. Enough to betray your friends." There was a pause. "You know that we captured Princess Leia, don't you?"
"No!" Heedless of the pain, he struggled in the
binders. He remembered... seeing her in
Cloud City... Leia, Chewie, a stranger... she was arrested... she was tortured. "No, she can't be--"
"Yes,
we have her and her companions. They
tried to escape from Cloud City but failed.
Solo is undergoing torture now, and I'm afraid the princess will be
next... unless you reveal the information we seek. Perhaps I will go to Bespin myself and try similar techniques on
her."
Luke's
stomach heaved, and the little food that had remained in it was vomited to the
floor. The action earned him another
slap across the face.
"You've
made a mess, boy! I'm not your servant
to clean up after you!"
His
throat felt scraped and raw.
"D-don't hurt Leia... please... not Leia...."
"Well...." Quester vanished from his sight again,
reappearing with a fat silver rod that he held in one hand and tapped against
his thigh in a rhythmic tattoo.
"If you are polite and agree to two things, I can arrange for her
to be sent to a prison for female political prisoners, there to wait out the
end of this hopeless rebellion."
He
nodded, willing to sacrifice anything to save Leia.
...destroy
all for which they have fought and suffered....
"Give
me your word of honor."
"I
promise," he said miserably.
"First,
where is the Rebel fleet?"
Gods.... There had to be a way to escape betraying
the Alliance. But even if he somehow
killed himself, that would leave Leia at the mercy of Quester... and others who
might be more sadistic. At their whim,
Leia might receive worse than torture.
A vivid scene of a line of stormtroopers waiting impatiently to rape her
flashed into his head, and he prayed it wasn't a vision.
"I'm
waiting, Luke."
He
was so scared, both for himself and for Leia, that he couldn't think. If there was a choice, he couldn't find it
and didn't have time to search. Several
deep breaths helped clear his mind. If
only he could find the Force...but it was lost to him, whether by drugs or by
Vader's influence. "After
Hoth...they were rendezvousing near Saarn," he murmured slowly. "I didn't go. I don't know if they went there or somewhere else. That's the truth."
"Where
did you go?"
"Dagobah,"
he said heavily. "I went to
Dagobah."
"Why
there?"
"I
had a vision... I thought." He
tried to shrug, immediately regretting the gesture when it sent fresh waves of
pain cascading down his lacerated back.
"I was injured on Hoth and lost in the snow. I almost died before I was rescued. I thought I heard a voice telling me to go
to Dagobah."
"Interesting." The tapping stopped, and the cylinder was
clenched in both hands and turned round and round. "What did you find on
Dagobah?"
He
lowered his gaze to the gleaming boots.
"Nothing. It was a
swamp. There was nothing important
there."
The
now-familiar remote appeared in Quester's hand. He flicked it, and two compartments opened in the floor, both
holding binders. Luke didn't struggle
as the physician fastened one around each ankle. Another press of the controls spread Luke's legs farther
apart. He pretended it wasn't
happening, that he wasn't being humiliated by this exposure.
"You
gave me your word, Luke. I'm
disappointed in you. I thought the son
of Lord Vader would be trustworthy.
Whom did you meet on Dagobah?"
How
could anyone know? Unless Vader knew
that Yoda lived there.... "No
one."
"Do
you know what this is?" The tube
was held near his face. Luke shook his
head. "It produces a shock. A standard interrogation technique, not very
imaginative. Not even particularly
effective, since the shock is minor."
It was pressed into the hollow of his throat, and Luke felt enough of an
electric current to cause him to jump.
But Quester was correct; it was only mildly painful.
"Are
you lying to me, Luke?"
He
shook his head.
"Here's
a simple test. Open your mouth. If you're telling the truth, you'll receive
a shock. If you're lying, you'll feel
no pain, and I'll know it."
His
brain might be befuddled, but Luke realized that made no sense. "What--?" he began, but Quester
was fast. He grabbed the back of Luke's
head, and the tube was pushed inside, scraping his teeth and stretched his
mouth. It was a frightening violation, and he felt more vulnerable and naked
than at any moment before. It jammed
against the back of his throat, and he gagged, trying to retch it out. Then his mouth was burning, jolts running
through his frame as if his bones were rattling against each other. Mucous membranes carried the current and
burned, and he struggled frantically, trying to dislodge the instrument that
Quester was holding so firmly.
It went on forever, yet in reality it was
probably only seconds before the shocks stopped. He was left hanging, limp and helpless as a baby, while Quester's
dark eyes bored into his own. Trying to
free himself, he attempted to turn his head away, but it was trapped
firmly. "That hurt, didn't
it? Not as much as losing loved ones,
of course. Would you like me to remove
it?"
Unable
to nod or speak, he blinked a few times.
"Ask
politely, Luke."
Please, he tried to croak, but
it came out as a grunt.
The
doctor smiled. "I think I
understood that." Very slowly, he
pulled out the rod, pausing twice to push it slowly back in before almost
drawing it out and letting it rest wetly at the entry to Luke's mouth.
The
symbolism was unmistakable, and he silently cursed his weakness in blushing. Better me than Leia, he thought resignedly,
but he hoped desperately that this would be the extent of his defilement.
"Don't
worry," Quester said, reading his transparent fears, "my sexual
interest doesn't extend to men, not even in these special circumstances. However, I cannot say the same about others
aboard." He paused before adding,
"Of course, your princess will become very familiar with varied acts of
rape, should you choose to remain uncooperative." He lowered the tube, resting it on Luke's
bare shoulder.
It
was slick and wet, and he cringed.
"I'll cooperate," he agreed hoarsely, his throat raw.
"Good. What happened on Dagobah?"
"Yoda,"
he hissed, defeated. "I met Yoda.
A Jedi master. He trained me."
"Good. You father will want details about your
training. I will leave that part of
your interrogation to him."
He'd
thought that his limit had been reached; that nothing Quester did or said could
hurt him further, but....
"Vader?" he whispered.
"He's going to...?"
The notion that his father could torture him was more than he could
bear.
"I'm
sure whatever my Lord decides to do will depend upon your level of
cooperation. You will be joining him
voluntarily, to become whatever he and the Emperor wish. That is the second condition that you have
agreed to in order to save the princess."
...it is you and your
abilities that the Emperor wants....
...no...oh
no... oh no....
...No!
There had to be a way....
Perhaps
he dozed out of total exhaustion.
Perhaps he had simply been insensible, lost in a maze created by drugs
and pain. He had no sense of time. Grating noises attracted his notice, rousing
him from his stuporous state. Quester
was dragging the table that had been behind him to the center of the room,
close enough that Luke could see it, far enough that he couldn't clearly see
the instruments of torture. Even his imagination was having difficulty
visualizing their details and purposes.
His
drifting attention focused on Quester.
The physician rearranged the implements with care, then stepped back,
apparently admiring his organization.
He walked to the door that opened immediately for him.
"Where're
you goin'?" Luke slurred.
The
Imperial paused in the hall and turned, looking at him but saying nothing. Like a ghost. But he wasn't a ghost, he was real....
"Don't
go.... Don't leave me! Please don't leave me!" he pleaded,
terrified of losing his only human contact.
The
door slid closed. He was alone.
Alone.
Who
would take care of him? Who would talk
to him? Who...?
"No!"
Luke screamed, as loudly as his chafed vocal cords could manage. It came out as
little more than a whimper. "Come
back... please... don't leave...don't leave...."
He
closed his eyes, sinking into a depressed paralysis.
"Are you awake?"
The
voice was part of his dream. It was a
beautiful world, rolling green hills, a lake that was bluer than the sky, air
that was filled with music. Why would
he want to wake up? Nowhere could be
better than this place. If only there were people in it....
"Skywalker...
are you awake?"
With
difficulty, he raised his chin. A
stranger was addressing him, an older man with sharp features and strict
military stature. Luke squinted, trying
to make out the insignia on his uniform.
Admiral, maybe... or captain... he couldn't remember. Anyway, it was
hard to count the bars when they kept moving.
"Wha'...."
"Hmm."
Shoulders stiff and hands clasped behind his back, the man walked away. Luke tried to twist to watch, nearly losing
his balance. The officer stopped at the
table and picked up one of the tools, examining it closely. Replacing it, he
then lifted the whip and slapped the table with it. Luke shuddered, and the stranger looked at him without
expression.
His
heart pounded against his chest. Though
a small part of his brain knew it was irrational, he wished Quester would
appear. He wanted his familiar captor,
not someone else, someone who might do Sith-knew-what to him. Looking down, he pretended to be invisible,
pretended that he couldn't see the man approach and stand right in front of
him.
"Would
you like a drink?"
A
cup of water shimmered in his line of sight.
Perhaps it was a mirage, or maybe just another form of torture, but he
nodded anyway.
The
cup came to his lips and tipped slightly.
He gulped, trying to drink before it was snatched away.
"Slow
down."
The
words made him swallow faster, then suddenly he was inhaling it, choking,
gagging, panicking because he couldn't breathe.
"Easy." The officer's hand rested on the nape of his
neck. "Take it slowly."
He
coughed, spraying water onto the pristine uniform, but the stranger didn't back
away or strike him. The cup was held
near his mouth, waiting until he recovered enough to resume drinking. Something
was smeared on the glass; it took a moment to realize it was flakes of dried
blood from his bitten lip. A sound that
was something between a sob and a sigh shook him, and he took deep, heaving
breaths to still his fear. It was hard
to distinguish which world was real and which was a nightmare, he thought
blearily. Maybe it was all a nightmare. Maybe soon he would wake up.
The
other echoed him with a sigh of his own.
When he'd drunk his fill, the glass was removed, and the man moved
away. Luke watched without interest as
the officer stared at the table again.
Then, like Quester, he headed for the door.
"C-can...."
Luke began, then cleared his throat and tried again. "Can you...w-wake me
up?"
The
deep-set eyes met his briefly.
"No," he replied quietly.
Feeling
nothing, Luke watched him leave. He
leaned his head back, and pain rippled down his spine, reminding him that he
was alive, maybe even awake. Steel binders held his ankles and wrists firmly
like a friend would. Closing his eyes, he
willed them to release their grip... but he was still totally disconnected from
the Force. What if he never got it back? What if he couldn't escape?
Escape
what? He lived here now, be it reality or dream. It was impossible to escape this place--
...that
is why you fail....
"Yoda?
Ben? Are you here?"
...if
you choose to face Vader... I cannot interfere....
"Not
Vader," he mumbled, his face falling forward again. "Vader's not here... Father... Father,
help me...."
*
* *
On
Coruscant, the Dark Lord trembled, the peace of his meditation disturbed as
though a thin blade had sliced into it, barely noticeable yet excruciatingly
painful.
Luke....
*
* *
The
sound of water woke Luke. It reminded him of Yavin, the pools and waterfalls
that hid in the depths of the forest, disguised from casual viewers by thick
foliage and nearly impassable trails. He could almost see it....
Slowly,
he opened his eyes. Small room, blank walls, no waterfalls. Pain woke as he did, creeping though his
limbs, though his hands and arms still slept, full of needles, unable to move.
Footsteps.
Quester. Wiping his hands on a white towel.
"You
came back," Luke whispered, flooded with relief.
The
familiar face appeared drawn and tired, the brown eyes sad. "Of course.
Did you think I wouldn't?"
He
didn't have the energy to nod, but he lifted his head and tried. "'fraid
you wouldn't."
Eyelids
squeezed closed, then Quester looked straight at him. "I'll never leave
you for long, Luke."
"'Kay."
His neck was too sore to hold up his head any longer, so he stared at the
buttons on Quester's tunic, relaxing as the officer rested Luke's head on his
shoulder and began to stroke his hair tenderly.
"I
had to eat, get some rest. I hear you had a visitor."
Quester
smell of soap and shampoo. "Mm-hmm."
"That
was Admiral Piett. He wanted to know if you are being cooperative. I told him
you were."
Quester
was proud of him. "Thank you."
"You're
welcome. Luke... oftentimes the terrorists learn about our secret plans and use
them to kill us...even women and children, like you did when you destroyed the
Death Star. That wasn't your fault, Luke. You didn't know that the terrorists
had planned so many deaths. They didn't tell you about all the people on the
Death Star. I need you to help me stop
them. How did they find out?"
Something
Leia had said... something from a Council meeting... spies....
"Bothans," he murmured.
"Ah,
Bothans. They are terrible beings. They cause death and destruction. Where are
they?"
Bothan
agents, Leia
whispered in his ear, in
the Imperial government, close to the throne. Tell him.
"Coruscant..." he mumbled, "...government... maybe palace
too...."
"Thank
you. You're a hero, Luke. Soon you'll be rewarded. What else do you know about the terrorists?"
Not
much, but he told Quester all that he remembered, hoping it was enough to
please him.
"It's
a start," Quester said when he'd finished. "Are you hungry, Luke?
Would you like something to eat?"
Pain
had blotted out all realization of hunger. Now, at the question, he realized he
was starving. "Yes... please."
"Good
boy." Quester smiled at him. "I brought something, just in
case." At the table, the instruments had been moved to make room for a
large satchel that Luke hadn't noticed. Quester rummaged in it and lifted out a
lidded bowl. He unfastened the lid and returned. "Hot soup, too thick for
you to drink easily. I'll feed you."
He
was lucky, really, to have fallen into the hands of such a kind captor. Would
Vader be so gentle when it was his turn to administer the torture? Vader
wouldn't feed him so patiently, slowly raising the spoon to his mouth, waiting
while he cautiously swallowed it, then dipping into the rich broth again and
again until the bowl was empty. Luke was exhausted and sleepy by the time they
were finished. It was difficult to keep his eyes open. He yawned.
Quester laughed. "My sleepy lad. Raylan
frequently did that, right in the middle of dinner. Asile would pretend to be
annoyed, and I would frown at him, but he would simply smile and finish eating.
Then he'd spend half the night out with his friends...and later, with Jayla.
Until they married, of course. Do you have a girlfriend, Luke? Leia,
maybe?"
Barely
able to shake his head, he tried to reply but failed. Leia would never be his
girlfriend. She was a princess, perfect, high above a lowly farm boy. Even if
he became a Jedi, she would still be beyond his reach.
"You
know, Luke, once you join your father, you'll be part of the royal court.
Perhaps even a prince. Prince Luke. Would you like that?"
He
was too groggy to reply that he would like it very much. Maybe Leia would fall
in love with him if he were a prince. And if she didn't, there would be plenty
of others at the court who would admire him.
"All
you have to do is agree to allow your father to teach you. He should have been
teaching you since you were a child. But the Jedi stole you away from him. He
missed you so much and has been so sad. Do you want to make your father happy,
Luke?"
Happy...
father be happy.... Father?
"You'll
stay with him. You have nowhere else to go. You can't return to the terrorists
now, can you? You've given away their dreadful secrets, and they would punish
you. They would torture you. You wouldn't like to be tortured, would you?"
No...
not torture... he wouldn't like that....
"I'm
going to clean your back now." There was a rush of soft sound. "I'm
using an air brush first to slough off the loose flesh."
First
came a caress of air, then from nowhere came a jolt of agony that jarred him
out of his stupor. His body went rigid, and he moaned as it continued, scouring
his back. He twisted, trying to pull away from it.
He
heard the silence but it took several more moments to register that the pain
had stopped.
Fingers
in his hair gently pulled his head up. Quester's expression was troubled.
"I'm a healer," he whispered. "I stop pain."
It
took the last remnants of his strength to get the words out. "Then...stop
mine."
Quester
drew a shuddering breath, releasing his grasp and stepping back. He muttered a
curse under his breath. Luke closed his eyes, utterly finished. Another sound,
a hiss against his stretched arm, and he faded into unconsciousness.
***
"The
interrogation is proceeding smoothly, My Lord. There have been no
problems."
Vader
eyed Quester's shimmering image. From
this distance, he could not confirm the veracity of the declaration and
wondered if the physician was being candid.
"I would be displeased to return and find my son permanently
damaged," he warned.
"As
you have said, My Lord." There was
a pause. "Do you expect to be
returning soon?"
His
eyes narrowed. "I depart Coruscant
this very day," he lied.
The
officer appeared not to flinch, though the holo was erratic and fragmented,
making it difficult to discern small details with any degree of accuracy. "I await your return, My Lord," he
replied with a small bow.
Vader severed the connection before snorting
cynically. No doubt Quester was using
some form of physical interrogation to supplement the mental techniques, hence
Vader's falsehood. Very well, the doctor had been warned. Should he step outside Vader's ambiguous
restrictions, he would suffer the consequences of the Sith Lord's displeasure. But Luke's plaintive Call concerned
him. The boy was not weak, and such an
outcry meant that Quester had gone too far.
Both physical and mental damage could be mitigated, but the more serious
and crippling it was, the more difficult and time-consuming would be the task
of restoration. Time was a luxury he and Luke might not have. To overthrow the Emperor, he needed his son
intact and willing to join him, willing to unite their powers and take
Palpatine by surprise. It was their only way to escape the Sith Master's
dominion.
The
Emperor was pleased with the information their captive had provided thus
far. And that pleasure, Vader mused
darkly, was the reason he would not return to the Executor, but would instead
bring Luke to Coruscant and introduce him to the Sithly arts,
first--regrettably but inevitably--under Palpatine's tutelage. Then, once the
regent was satisfied of the boy's loyalty, Luke would become Vader's disciple
in the art of subversion.
Pleased
with his agenda, the Dark Lord began to plan his tactics.
***
There
was a boundary between oblivion and consciousness, but Luke was unaware of
crossing it. He had a gradual
comprehension of being alive, burdened with so much pain that he no longer felt
anything, being in the room that had become his universe, with the man who had
become his God.
That
knowledge was enough; he was no longer curious and had no need to raise his
head. He'd forgotten how to raise it;
he'd forgotten all his muscles. He
simply hung, indifferently hearing his own rasping breathing, uncaring when it
caught in his throat every few seconds.
He
was dying, and he didn't care.
Familiar
black boots appeared in his line of vision.
They were blurred. "Would
you like water?"
A
cup was tipped to his lips. He had
neither the strength nor the desire to drink from it, and the liquid slid down
his chin.
"Luke. Look at me.
Look
at me!"
Quester
was angry. Luke tried to lift his head,
but he couldn't remember the command to make it rise. Something about his neck...but his neck was limp and motionless.
He tried to look, but his eyelids were too tired to stay open.
Quester
was saying things he didn't understand.
Soon there were sounds, other people.
An arm snaked around his waist, fabric catching on the rough, peeled
flesh of his back. Two clicking noises
jarred his ears, and he crumpled, supported by the arm for a short moment
before he collapsed totally.
He
felt nothing. His arms and legs were
amputated, or turned to jelly, the bones extricated. Or maybe his skeleton still hung, and his skin had simply slid
off into a useless pile on the floor.
He
was jostled, covered, moved... traveling, he was traveling somewhere... maybe
he was flying, maybe they would put him in his x-wing and let him fly away,
back to the farm, before any of this had happened, where he was safe, everyone
he cared about was safe, none of this had happened, no dreams of glory and
adventure had come true, and he was safe....
The
ceiling was pale blue. Luke stared at
it, then gingerly moved his head to the side.
There was a pillow beneath his cheek, clean-smelling and soft. His gaze slid downward. A white sheet covered him, and he was
wearing a gown. He tried to reach up
and found he was tethered. A tube
connected to his arm was pumping something into him. He followed the route of the tube to a machine and saw it was a
standard nutrient dispenser.
His
head rolled back to center, and he stared at the ceiling. He was safe for the moment but, more importantly,
he could think. For the first time in what was probably a
very long time, his mind was clear. Was
this, he wondered with sudden foreboding, another form of torture? Was he being
lured into a safe harbor, only to face another wave of terror? His happiness at being finished with the
torments faded. His fear would never be over; this was his life now.
Because
even if the pain ended... the pain would never end.
"You're
awake."
He started.
Perhaps his mind was not as clear he he'd hoped. Quester was standing at the side of his
bed. The doctor pulled up a chair and
sat, smiling at him. "Feeling
better?"
"Yes,"
he replied in a small voice. He folded
the top of the sheet, smoothing out the wrinkles. Quester said they were friends, but Quester hurt him. Would he ever be able to trust in friendship
again? "Are we going back?"
Quester
bent closer as though he could barely hear the question. "Back to where?"
He
folded the hem under again and shrugged.
Quester was waiting, so finally Luke said: "There."
"Ah." Quester leaned back in the chair and crossed
one leg over the other. Luke peered
through his lashes, watching closely.
"I don't know. Lord Vader
is returning, so it will be up to him.
If he feels you will keep your part of the bargain...."
Bargain. His forehead creased as he struggled to
remember.
"You
agreed to join him," Quester said, reading his mind. "You will join your father and the
Emperor. You're going to be a prince,
Luke, and very powerful. Someday you
will be a Sith Lord like your father."
And
Leia would go free. He remembered that
part. Struggling to raise himself
partially upright, he shook off Quester's proffered assistance. "What about Leia? Is she free yet?"
"Free?" Quester appeared confused. "The Princess was not a captive. As far as I know, she is still with the
Rebels."
It
was as though a veil fell over his vision, like a thick fog enveloping his
mind. "What?" he asked
thickly. "What?"
"Mm-hmm." Quester stood, making some minute
adjustments to the flow of fluid through the tube. "I believed we talked about that. She escaped from Cloud City with her companions."
"You
lied to me." Words swirled in his
brain so fast he couldn't sort them out.
"Leia was-- she was a prisoner, that was why I told you... whatever
I told you. You lied! All this time-- you tortured me, I let you
do it, I told you secrets-- and all this time, you lied!" His voice continued to rise until he was shouting. His arms flailed, yanking the tubing loose,
liquid spraying the physician's white coat with sticky yellow.
"Luke,
calm down or I'll have to sedate you."
Calm
down? His fury threatened to erupt, and he wanted
to harness the Force and use it to destroy the room and this lying man,
annihilate the entire vessel, the entire--
Calm....
That
was Yoda's word. Almost as though the Jedi Master was in his head, his hypnotic
whisper slid through Luke's veins like a soothing drug.
...Be
calm.... Quiet now, be at peace....
Closing
his eyes, he reclined again, exhausted from his outburst.
"That's
better."
Unbridled
hatred of the physician could only create more horrors--for both of them. He remembered Quester's honest, terrible
grief... the way festering anger and a gnawing craving for vengeance had turned
the healer into a sadist who reveled in the agony of another being. Unexpectedly, pity surged through him, and
he gazed compassionately at the man.
Quester
looked away, a dark flush rushing into his face as he refastened the tubing to
the pump. "I have other patients
to tend. If you can remain calm, I
won't have to restrain you."
"I'll
be fine," he murmured weakly, his frailty a pretense. "I think I need
to rest." Luke closed his
eyes. "I'm so tired...." Once Vader returned, it would be difficult
to escape. If he was going to gain his
freedom, he would have to do it soon.
...Be
at peace...use what you have learned...
...Use
what he has taught you....
When
he was certain Quester was gone, he opened his eyes to scan the room, then
closed them again. Undoubtedly he was
being monitored, and the Imperials did not need to know that he remained awake.
Awake
and plotting.
He
slept off and on, his rest disturbed by worry about Alliance secrets that he
may have revealed to Quester. The drugs
he'd been given had done more than cloud his mind at the time; they had also
impaired his memory. He could remember
none of his possible betrayals and realized that pondering the possibilities
was time-consuming and futile. At any
moment Vader might arrive, and Luke was sick with apprehension about the Sith
Lord's intentions. He would not, could not become a tool for
the Emperor, as his father was.
Escape
was his only option. Escape or death.
"Is
my father here?" he asked, dismayed to hear that his words were slurred.
Quester
didn't look up from the datapad he was studying. "He's been delayed."
Delayed. His heart leaped with excitement at the
reprieve, though he was careful not to allow his voice to betray it. "When is he going to get here?"
"I
don't know."
The
physician was not in a talkative mood, and Luke wondered if he was worried
about the possible repercussions of the torture. He hesitated over his next words before speaking. "Could I see the image of Raylan
again?"
The
silver head jerked upright.
"Why?" Quester stood
and walked to his bedside. "What
do you want it for?"
"Oh...."
Luke yawned. "I had a strange
dream about him, and I thought if I held the image again...."
"What
sort of dream?" The man's tone was
tense and hoarse, and Luke had to forcibly quell the empathy he felt.
"I
dreamed he wasn't killed in that raid, but was captured instead." He let his eyelids close slowly. "I'm sleepy...."
"Don't
go to sleep," the doctor urged.
"Tell me more. Could my
son...be alive?"
Gods. The sudden, desperate hope in Quester's
voice stabbed Luke's conscience. He was
glad that he wasn't looking at his captor, for his regret would give lie to his
performance. "Don't know," he
murmured. "Bring image...."
"I'll
get it. Don't go to sleep-- Luke,
please, stay awake. I'll be right
back."
When
Quester had gone, the Jedi opened his eyes and stared at the ceiling. He wanted to thoroughly hate the man who had
tortured him, but his emotions were confounded by conflicting memories of
Quester's inhumanity and kindness, his talent for healing, his pain, and the
nightmares that had marred his life. It
was tempting to pity him, but if manipulating Quester was what Luke had to do
to escape, then he would do it.
Was
this the Dark Side that Yoda had warned him against? Even if it was, he had no choice. At least, no choice that he could see.
He
was still staring sightlessly when the officer returned. "Here," Quester said, eagerly
thrusting the image into his hand.
Luke
stared at the youth, regretting the loss of yet another life, for there was no
question that Raylan was dead. He
closed his eyes, allowing the scene of the brief battle to fill him again. He saw Raylan fall, felt the oblivion that
surrounded him. He sighed. "I think...he was wounded, not
killed."
"He's
alive? Raylan is alive?" The voice was frantic with hope and guarded
joy. "Where is he?"
"He
was...captured," Luke continued dreamily.
"Held somewhere...."
"Where? Where is he?"
"I
think...oh...."
"What
is it?" Hands closed on his
shoulders, shaking him.
He
refused to open his eyes. "I
think...he was tortured...yes...tortured by the Alliance."
"What?" Quester's breathing came in strained
gasps. "No--that's not
possible. They said-- there was a body,
it was buried there on Ord Mantell-- he can't have been captured. Gods be damned, he can't have been
tortured!"
"Would
you be upset if he'd been tortured?" Luke asked carefully, opening his
eyes and studying the doctor.
The
man's face was sickly pale, horror and rage glistening in his eyes. "Upset?
I would kill them with my bare hands!"
"Really...? Then you'd better hope my father doesn't feel the
same way," he murmured ingenuously.
Quester's
face turned into a hard mask, and he released his grasp, pushing Luke back
against the pillow. "You bastard--
are you lying to me about my son? You
didn't have any vision, did you? You
can't see anything!"
"I
can see. I had a vision about
Raylan," he replied quietly.
"But I'm inexperienced in the ways of the Force and don't know how
accurate are my interpretations of my visions."
The
physician rose, running his fingers through his gray hair, and began to pace
the room. "So Raylan could be a
captive. Can you see if he's still
alive?"
"I'm
not certain. He could be." He hardened his heart against the other's
agony. "If he is, he'd be on the
Rebel base."
"Saarn?"
Quester stopped pacing and folded his arms, obviously thinking.
Saarn. He had told them. Luke squeezed his eyes closed, cursing himself. The Imperial fleet was probably on its way--
or already there. Leia, I'm sorry, he shouted in his mind.
Get
out of there-- if you can hear me, leave now!
"Yes." Nervously, he looked at the officer. "What are you going to do?"
"I'm
going to think. Shut up," the physician snapped. With a furious curse under his breath, the
older man strode out of the medcenter.
Luke
inhaled deeply, calming the exhausted tremble that shivered through his
body. There was nothing to do now but
wait and hope that Quester came to the obvious decision before Vader arrived.
- - - - - - - -
It was a few hours before the physician returned,
accompanied by two stormtroopers. "Get up and get dressed," Quester
ordered brusquely, tossing a jumpsuit on the bed. "Hurry up."
Luke slid out of bed, then sank back against the
edge of it. How long had it been since he'd asked his legs to hold him?
They were shaking, and he felt nauseous. Under the impassive gazes of
the troopers, he struggled to dress himself with trembling hands while
Quester packed datapads and medication in a satchel.
"Where are we going?" He hadn't expected his seed of
an idea to come to fruition so soon and tried to hide the elation in
his voice.
"Lord Vader is not coming here. Instead, he has
ordered that you be brought to Coruscant, there to be presented to the
Emperor as his new student."
His hands froze in mid-motion, dropping the soft
shoe to the floor. He stared at it, unable to give himself the mental
command to bend over and pick it up. Coruscant? No...oh no oh no...
...It is you and your abilities the Emperor wants...
And now the Emperor would have him. Unless...
Quester knelt, slipping the shoe onto his foot. He
stood and met Luke's horrified gaze. The brown eyes were unreadable,
implacable, and Luke shuddered at the cold resolve he saw in them.
"Coruscant?" he whispered, and Quester stared hard at him before
cuffing his wrists, turning away to nod to the troopers.
They proceeded through the hallways. This time there
was no audience, no jeering, no scorn. This time Luke was invisible,
another faceless prisoner of the Empire. And this time there was a
docking bay, a ship...freedom, if he could manage to win it, one way or
another.
It was a mid-size shuttle, not luxurious but built
for speed and distance. Luke paused as he was led on board, catching a
glimpse of his reflection in the mirrored finish of the interior hatch.
His face was bruised and discolored, though he didn't remember being
struck. He looked old and tired, and he barely recognized himself.
"Move it." A poke in his back enforced the command.
The uniformed pilot and copilot waited in the
cockpit while the trooper inspected the ship. Luke was strapped in, the
binders still clamped tightly around his wrists. He listened to the
conversation between the pilot and the bay controller, closing his eyes
as the familiar hum of engines warming reminded him of his x-wing and
how he longed to be piloting again. But his fighter had been abandoned
in Cloud City...just as he had been.
He remained still and silent through take-off,
imagining that he was on the Falcon and that Han and Chewie were at the
controls, that it was Leia sitting next to him, not his healer, his
abuser. Drifting into a drowsy state, he paid little attention as they
sped through space until a voice came over the intercom.
"Doctor, you asked to be advised when we were at our hyperspace jump-point. We're almost there."
Luke stifled a yawn, leaning slightly against the
seat that Quester vacated. He opened his eyes, dismayed that he was
still so tired. Evidently the feeding tube had been pumping drugs into
his system as well as nutrients. He had to fight against the urge to
relax. He had to focus on releasing his binders and finding a moment
when he could--
The sharp report of a blaster ripped through the
cabin, and he jumped, automatically fumbling to release the
constraining lapbelt. Another blast sounded, and he was free and on his
feet, frantically trying to rip off the cuffs. Staggering toward the
cockpit, he stopped and stared in horror at the two bodies slumped in
their chairs.
Quester dragged the pilot and copilot to the floor,
kicking them out of the way. "Sit down or I'll shoot you, too," he
snarled. "I don't need your help to find Raylan. If he's still on
Saarn, I'll track him down."
His surprise passed immediately. This wasn't quite
what he had planned, but it would work. "You can't do everything
yourself. You need a navigator--hell, you need me to get to the
Alliance base without being shot down." He held out his hands. "Unlock
these."
Quester hesitated.
Luke shook his head impatiently. "I want to get to
Saarn as much as you do. Let me go and I'll help you find Raylan."
A shadow passed over the physician's face before he
reached a decision and quickly unfastened the binders. Luke dropped
into the pilot's seat. "I'm the better pilot," he declared flatly.
"And I've got the blaster," Quester stated as he took the copilot's chair. "Try anything and you're dead."
There was nothing he needed to try, and he wondered
if Quester truly didn't understand what he'd done. The Imperial officer
had just murdered two Imperial soldiers and was fleeing with a Rebel
prisoner to the Rebel base, where the prisoner would become a free man
and the doctor would become the prisoner.
And would find, contrary to his desperate hope, that there was no son for him to rescue.
After the new coordinates were plotted and entered
and the jump to hyperspace made successfully, Luke glanced at his
copilot. Quester's face was ghostly white, glowing with a cold sweat.
His gaze flickered to the side, where the dead pilot's booted foot was
visible.
"Feeling guilty?" Luke asked.
"Yes." Quester gave him a tight, humorless
smile. "I do have a conscience, despite what you may believe."
"I know you have one. You also have the ability to put it aside when it becomes inconvenient."
Like I'm doing.
"I'll do anything for my son."
It was a simple statement, but it made Luke wonder
why his own father didn't feel the same. He knew that one day, if he
was lucky enough to have a child, he too would do anything to protect
his son or daughter. But Vader didn't feel that way. Vader left his son
in the hands of a fiend-- a fiend who had once been a sane family man
and a healer.
"His loss changed you. You were a decent person before that, weren't you?"
There was a long silence before: "I thought I still
was," Quester whispered painfully, "until... you. And now I have lost
everything--my position, my self-respect. But all my sacrifices will be
worth having my son again."
"Will they?" He could only imagine a love that could
command such a high price, and he envied Quester even as he feared the
obsession such a love could create.
"Yes," the physician said with finality.
"You'll be a prisoner, though." It was what Quester
deserved. So why did the realization make Luke uncomfortable?
...you are betraying Quester as you betrayed the Alliance...
"I saved you."
...yes...
"You tortured me." He clung to that truth, for it
was his only justification for his own treachery. Luke stared at the
stars that streamed past them, long, twisting ribbons of light. He
needed to decide what to do when they reached Saarn, and he prayed that
the Alliance would still be there-- and that the Empire would not be.
If there had not yet been an attack, there would be soon. He would have
to warn them, which meant that he would have to confess his disloyalty.
And what about his torturer? The Alliance would arrest Quester. He
could never return to the Empire he had betrayed, and he would learn
that his son was indeed dead. Even the sustenance of vengeance would be
lost to him. Though he did not yet know it, the physician's life was
over.
For the first time, Luke wondered if the cost of his escape was too great, too Dark.
...you will become an agent of Evil...
Luke brushed aside a tear, destroying the evidence
of the pain inside him. Pain for his lost innocence, tears for
the boy he would never be again. "You're evil. I have to denounce you.
There's no other way."
"I followed orders, as a good soldier would. You are
the son of Darth Vader." Quester didn't look at him. "Judge for
yourself which one of us the Alliance will find more threatening. When
they learn your identity, they'll give me a medal for torturing you.
You'll lose everything if you denounce me." Now the dark eyes focused
on him. "If you have lied, if my Raylan is truly dead, you will replace
him. I will never let you go, Luke. Your life belongs to me. So you
see, my boy, we either live with the lies or tell the truth and die
together. Your choice."
Your choice.
And he would have to live with the consequences of
whatever choice he made. He could let Quester control him and exist in
a world of hypocrisy, basking in the false admiration of the Alliance,
while the truth slowly eroded and consumed him. Or he could tell the
truth, likely condemning him as well as Quester. You are the son of
Darth Vader.
What would the Alliance do with the son of Darth Vader?
It was a surprisingly simple choice. It wasn't about
him or Quester or Vader. It was about the safety of the Rebel forces
and the freedom of the galaxy. Luke folded his arms and didn't reply to
the physician. But in his head, he whispered a final farewell.
Father... good-bye.
- - - - - - - -
The messenger died for delivering the message.
The Dark Lord glared at the prone figure as though
he could will different words out of the corpse. To have come so close,
to have had his son in his grasp, and now this...
Quester was a fool. He should have had more guards
with them. With the Force and his innate stubbornness, it must have
been child's play for Luke to take control of the shuttle and flee to
Rebel space, taking with him two soldiers and a perfectly competent
physician and security aide.
Now, too, his plan to squash the Alliance in one
blow was shattered. He had hoped to use the knowledge of the location
of the Rebel stronghold to further Luke's Fall, but he knew it was
useless to send the fleet to Saarn. Warning them was undoubtedly the
first thing Luke had done upon his return, and by now the damned Rebels
were on the move. Still, Quester had obtained other useful information
from Luke. Perhaps identifying the traitorous Bothans would placate
Palpatine.
A fool's hope. Nothing would placate Palpatine. The
Emperor would be furious when he discovered the magnitude of the loss,
and discover it he would, for Vader could hide nothing if the Master
probed him. There was no reason to delay delivering the bad news,
but...he would review Quester's interrogation tapes to see if the
doctor had missed recounting anything of importance that Luke may have
revealed.
No. To delay was to be weak. He would go now, though
he hoped the Emperor would not sense the treacherous sentiment that was
buried in the depths of his heart: The son was free... as the father
had never been.
And the father was condemned to continue his life of servitude.
Vader drew himself up straighter, consciously
uncurling his fists. Closing his eyes and focusing on the Force, he
opened himself to it, joining the easy flow that brought him both peace
and rage, relaxing his mind to replenish his strength and fortify
himself for the coming confrontation--
...Father...
His eyes flew open.
Perhaps his dreams were not dead after all.